"In Loving Memory of Marky Cielo"

Last Sunday the whole country was shocked and devastated about a text message that circulated that the young actor and Starstruck "Sole Survivor" Marky Cielo was found dead on their Antipolo's abode that morning during the world renowned match of Manny Pacquiao and Oscar Dela Hoya.

That Sunday we we're preparing for our Christmas Party together with my housemates that was held at "Providence" in Vito Cruz near DLSU and adjacent to St. Benilde. We we're watching Showbiz Central and Katrina Halili was interviewed and he sent his condolences to Marky's loved ones. At first it didn't sink it in my mind until Pia guanio did the same, until my housemate received an sms telling the not so good news. Though I'm not a fan i felt the lost for the industry, i heard a lot of good things about the guy, i really admire him for being an advocate of youth, a clean living life without vices. It pains me to know that the country loses a great and humble actor and a beloved son, friend and an admirable icon for his fan.

Some rumors circulated that the guy committed suicide but the autopsy shows if I'm not mistaken that he died from SUNDs (Sudden Unexpected Nocturnal Death) or medically speaking

"Acute Hemorrhagic Pancreatitis" the same reason of Rico Yan's death.

So many young precious celebrities died, but they still remembered, the like i mention, Rico Yan, Julie Vega and many more, i also remembers Selena the Mexican singer who brought us the timeless classics like "Dreaming Of You" and "I Could Fall In Love".

I'm sure wherever Marky Cielo is now, he's happy and hopefully peaceful. As for me i will remember this young boy for the superb dancing skills and wonderful vibe and spirit he had.

Ainan :)

"Another Lesson Learned"

After so many Jurassic years i am sharing some thoughts that i am contemplating right now. I was finished reading "The Purpose Driven Life" and on the process reading "Chicken Soup For the Unsinkable Soul" i was into reading again not just for pastime but i really do learned a lot.





I was temporarily relocated to Ophthalmology Unit for about two weeks now, and still adjusting on the new set-up. Thank, God he made me a very flexible person and pliable that i can get along to every people you placed on my path. The last Night duty i had on Annex 3-2nd East was really unforgettable, i had a girl patient aged 26 whom when i was received during endorsement had 80/50 mmHg Blood pressure, i was doing titration on her Dobutamine ( a drug that increases blood pressure and heart rate) to made her stable but at 2 o'clock in the morning she had cardiac arrest so i call for "Code Red" a typical Greys Anatomy scene where the medical team trying to revived the patient. There we're some Doctor's Ambu-bagging, some were doing cardiac compression and some were suctioning, for me being the nurse had very crucial role i was the one handing off equipments, gave them emergency drugs like epinephrine, sodium bicarbonate so on and so forth. If you think I was a Pro during that time, you're wrong because it was my first time and it was kinda confusing, after that arrest the patient became stable but after 30 minutes or so she had an arrest and expired after our tremendous efforts to kept her alive. I learned so much after that, and i was thankful to my co-staff for helping me and guiding me through that chaotic moment, they even shared some of my pending task for the continuity of care. If you're planning to become a nurse those situation will test your critical thinking, speed rate, knowledge. That was quite an experience.





Last November 29, My sister and i had a day out, she accompanied me to Divisoria to bought some gifts for this holiday to all my "inaanak" and nephews and nieces. After the long tiring walk and shopping from different malls and stalls, we went to Trinoma because I had promised her that I will treat her out on a movie because it was her birthday last 25th. When we got there, i was quite fascinated on the long lines of people who were planning to watched Twilight and three cinemas already jam packed. We ended up watching "One True Love" featuring Dingdong Dantes and Marianne Rivera, at first don't account me as "baduy" or "jologs" but patronizing your own isn't a crime right?. I may say the movie was half good half OK, not that great but it has substance and sense.





I learned new thing about love, Marianne was right when she said the line "In love, you don't have to do anything to impress the person or to get his attention, you don't have to kneel or beg for some one's love; you don't have to changed yourself" Be yourself, that's all you can do, he must love you for your nothingness not for he wanted you to be. Love is respect, so he must learned to respect you and not to demand to change you or for you to do everything he wanted.


If the person you love didn't like you for who you are, just go he's not the one our Lord made for you, the person must love you for who the real you in pure black and white





Ainan :)

"Why People tend to be Single"

Here’s a forwarded message I recently got from a stranger. I don’t know about you, but I can honestly relate with everything written here. Ok, let’s crack up…sana makarelate ka…….
11. Destiny AdikEto yung mga naghihintay kay “Destiny” na gumawa ng paraan para pagtagpuin sila ng kanilang mga “partner in life”.. ayannn… kakapanood nyo ng “Serendipity” eh feeling nyo ang nangyari sa movie eh mangyayari rin sa inyo… such a cliche.. hindi ba nyo alam na kung walang effort destiny is useless.
10. Perfectionist/ MapiliYes, isang taong perpeksiyonista. Yung tipong “dapat ganito ang magiging kapartner ko”. Pag may nakilala, nakita lang na pangit ang kuko o may dumi lang, turn-off na agad. O kaya ang daming ayaw. Ayaw sa mabait, boring daw, gusto bad boy/ pilya pero kapag pinaiyak ka tatanungin ka “bakit ang sama mo”, “bakit mo nagawa yun!”… Adik ka ba?!… Ayaw sa cute, ayaw din naman sa panget. Meron dyan gusto ka ayaw mo naman.. yung gusto mo halos magtambling ka pero deadma pa rin yang stunts mo sa kanya! Pasaway ka rin e! Ano ba talaga?
9. Busy BusyhanOpo, eto yung ang mundo e gumagalaw lang sa libro at ballpen kung estudyante ka o kaya naman sa computer at files kung office staff ka. Yung tipong aalis ng bahay ng alas 6 o alas 7 ng umaga at uuwi ng bahay ng 6 hanggang alas 8 ng gabi [baligtad naman para sa mga nag tratrabaho sa call center]. Sabay tulog na. Kapag sabado masaya na sila sa tv, sa pagkain na niluluto ni mama at sa linggo naman sisimba at maghahanda na ng kelangan para sa lunes hanggang byernes. Pssssst.. pause for a while naman!
8. Friendship TheoryAno naman ito?… Eto yung ang buhay ay kay bestfriend o kaya kay special friend, na hindi masabi-sabi sa friendship nya sa loob ng kanilang mahabang panahon na pagsasama, dahil baka daw maapektuhan ang pakikipagkaibigan at iwasan sya. Yung tipong pag may kasama si friendship na iba, nagseselos na wala naman sa lugar, pero syempre wag pahalata, kunyari happy sya for friendship. ABA! Oi! Lakasan mo ang loob mo at baka mamaya forever mong pagsisihan yan, kaw rin!… Minsan pa naman pareho pala kayong naghihintayan. . hmmp!
7. Born-to-be-one (Autistic)Eto yung nasa palad na ang pagiging single daw. Walang reasons. Basta lang nabuhay sya sa mundo na mag-isa at feeling nya mamamatay sya sa mundong mag-isa. Kesyo magmamadre o magpapari na lang… Asa kang tatanggapin ka pa noh!
6. Happy-go-luckyEto yung taong walang alam kundi kasiyahan at trippings. Kahit sino na lang basta no string attached. For fun lang daw… Walang halong seryosohan. hoy! Yang init ng katawan mo e ikiskis mo na lang sa pader. Makakahanap ka rin ng katapat mo!!!
5. Wrong PlaceMay nakaranas na ba nito? Yung pakiramdam mo nasa ibang mundo ka. Yung ang nakakaharap mo e yung mga hindi mo gusto, yung mga hindi mo hinahanap. Alam mo yun? Halimbawa nasa ibang bansa ka, pero ang hinahanap mo e yung amoy ng nasa sariling bayan mo. O kaya naman e nasa sarili mong bayan ka, nasa normal na lipunan, pero ikaw ang abnormal at hindi mo kayang sabihin na abnormal din ang hanap mo kung ayaw mong ibitin ka nila ng patiwarik.
4. Wrong TimeEto yung mga tao na sinasabi na “hindi pa ako ready e, bata pa kasi ako” o kaya naman “hindi pa ako handa sa panahong ito”, “wala pa ako kayang ipagmalaki”. Yes meron pong ganyan. Yung feeling nila may tamang panahon para sa love. Awwwwwww!… Aba kelan yun?!… Pag uugod-ugod ka na at yung time mo e bitin na? O baka naman pag pang-out of time ka na? Oist, sugod lang ng sugod!
3. Si Parents kasi…Yes, factor din ang komyunidad na ginagalawan mo. Una, ayaw pa ni mader o pader na magkaron ka kahit 22 anyos ka na at kelangan umabot ka muna raw ng 40 bago magkaroon ng gf/bf. O kaya naman ikaw mismo! Takot sa sasabihin ni parents at ni kapitbahay na tsismosa sa magiging kasama mo. Aba ikaw na nga ba ang sabihan na “Alam mo hindi kayo bagay. Langit at lupa kayo.” Awwwww!… Payo ko sayo, “Pakialam nila diba?… Palibhasa inggit!”
2. Traumatic ExperienceEto kalimitan ang reason ng marami. “Ayaw kona!!! Takot na ako mangyari pa ang nangyari dati!”… O diba, ang drama ng layp?… Yes, tama ka. Eto yung dahil sa past relationship mo, e until now aayaw mo nang magkaroon at sinumpa mo na ata ang magmahal. Dahil sa pinagpalit ka sa mas pangit, o kaya naman iniwan ka ng walang word na bye-bye, o dahil binugbog ka!, anopa ba?… Madami yan wag na nating isa- isahin at baka tumulo si tears, heheh… Gayunpaman, eto lang masasabi ko mga hija at hijo… Ibat-iba ang lasa ng pag-ibig. May mapait, may mapakla, may matamis at may maasim. Aba, mapalad ka at natikman mo ang ibat- ibang lasa nito! Kaya ikaw, “Do not be afraid to fall in love again… malay mo, sweetiness na ang malasahan mo next time.! E di panalo ka sa lotto! Yan ang nagpapalakas sayo… Yan ang bumubuhay sayo… ang pag-ibig. Tsk! Drama!
1. EX to the Nth powerOi, aminin!!! LOVE pa rin si Ex kahit 1 or 2 yrs na ang nakakalipas. May ganito naman. Yung tipong ilang taon na ang nakakalipas, hindi pa rin makalimutan si ex. Yung pinagsamahan, yung tawanan, yung iyakan, at lahat ng nangyari sa inyo nung kayo pa. Malungkot man at sa kung anumang kadahilanan, maganda man o masama ito, kelangan nyo ng magpaalam sa isa’t-isa… YES, after a year sasabihin natin, “I’m over him/her na.”, pero pag-usapan natin ang love at ang nangyari sa ating relastionship from the past, TADANNNNNNNNNNNNN, eto na, sya agad ang naalala mo. At habang nagkukwento ka OUCH! may kirot, o kaya may ngiti at may bumabagabag sa iyong kalooban. Ano kaya yun?!… AMININ mo na kasi, MAHAL mo pa siEX… Isa lang ang masasabi ko, well, mahirap sya kalimutan alam ko yan, pero open your heart and makipagdate ka, lumabas ka, at try to entertain someone. Wag mo ikumpara si ex sa iba. At give urself a KITKAT, take a break………

The New Look (being blonde)

I don't know if this is applicable to boys but i know that when girls are broken and down they tend to change their looks, their outward appearance. They cut their hair short, dye their hair, buy new clothes, change the whole appearance. Maybe its a form of reviving or renewing yourself after that bitter past.

In my case, I've been semi-kalbo for three times, i remember the first time i did that, because i was torn apart from my first love, it was disconcerting at that time because i received overwhelming feedback. There were some people who was happy and contented on what i did, and some who didn't like the change. But, nonetheless i was blissful about it and did it three times.

Now, the major overhauled i did, surprisingly! i dyed my hair, i complement it with my eye color, which is naturally brown. They said i looked like a foreigner because of my fair complexion, i was happy about the result, worthy of all the efforts i exerted. The reason i made a sudden change was first i consider it as an anti-stress and secondly to conceal my status quo for about a year, you know what i mean being 'single' maybe trying to attract potential preys, lols.

Changing your looks every six months is refreshing, it ends the monotony of your routine life. Before i always felt inferior and Unpretty, but since i regain my confidence and boost my self-esteem,I'm not just flaunting what i have I'm claiming my place. "We are beautiful no matter what they say, just believe in yourself and be confident on what you have right now"

The Sweet Escape

You may associate this entry to Gwen Estefani's huge hit single last 2007, its kinda related due to the lyrics "If i could escape, and recreate a place of my of my own world". For me, i do believe we are all "escapist" in are own little world, we have all our different ways how to escape life stress, chaos, and even avoiding difficult people. I was inspired to write this entry because i found out that i have a numerous ways of escaping, let say I'm an escape artist. lols.

Seriously, when i am woe and broken, and almost knocking to the door of the "Department of Temporary Insanity" i always do daydreaming, i fantasize places i want to visit, people i want to be with, and career i would prefer if I'm not in my shoes today, its a great relief temporarily from the realm of your true status quo. Recently, i went home to Bulacan to a paid a visit to my family and later found out, coming home to the place you we're born is a good di-stress activity, surely, there's no place like home, the comfort it brings, the slow-paced life, the fresh air, an escape from the fast-paced life away from the metropolis.

Yesterday, i had an acquaintance with one of my gal pal, we talked about almost everything, and updated ourselves with all the major changes happened to us. What strikes me the most was the news that our closet-gay friend now have a new boyfriend, and she wants me to keep it a secret because our friend wanted to keep it a secret between the two of them, which now its not a secret anymore, obviously. I felt weird when i heard the news, i dunno if i felt peculiar, emptied or insecure, maybe the last two because, i am single for almost three years now. Though, i accept it already that maybe i was one of the chosen few born to be single, still I'm not losing hope that someday i will find "HIM". Just what I've said to my friend, "I'm saving the best for last" and i know that what He has in store for me is much more to my expectation. I'm not hoping because its pure expectation instead i have "Faith" that he will come. Faith is believing that something good is in store for you, right?

Ainan :)

"Seeing My First Love and Ex Unexpectedly"

The guy name is Mark Anthony Escanilla, I had this feeling for him since grade six, and eventually stop loving him, (if i did) when i was in my third year as a nurse and went to manila.

I have plenty of memories about this guy, i even consider him as my soul mate, because during those times i swoon over him, we always wore the same color of shirts, and wherever i went he was there. Furthermore, he witnessed all the embarrassing moments of my life, all the tripping, fumbling on the road, all the wounds and those scars i gained from those freak tripping.lols.


Actually, he's my first emblem of my ideal guy (now its Chris Tiu), he stands 5'8" tall, chinky-eyed, fair skinned, medium almost slim bodied, we've been textmates last 2004, and built a mutual relationship, i even agreed to jump on a relationship with him, though he had a girlfriend that time for about three months, and that girl named was Mariela. The relationship last for about a month because i decided to end it up, though he said, he didn't love the girl, and only his friends forced him to court her. I defended that if he really not in love with that girl, why does he still continue going on with that crap, that's why i thought of some bluff to end our relationship, i can't stand being the second best or the mistress. I haven't met the girl yet, and only saw her pictures on Mak Mak's FS account. She's a plain simple girl, and i know he love her so much, they are still together up to now, if I'm not mistaken they are cohabiting and in their five or six years. I still do have access to Mak mak's account because we exchanged password before.

I never saw him again, and still so many stories i haven't posted yet, i will tell the whole story when i have the time. I saw him again last October 7, all the way to Manila while he was his way home to Talacsan, i only had a glimpse of him because he was riding on a tricycle that time and i was walking towards the Bus Terminal. Funny, that i was staring at this one guy i constantly had the same Jeep to ride, after that guy passed by i saw Mak Mak looking at me, i only stared at him for a second and looked away, because i know Mariela was with him.

I don't know what i felt at that time, but i know God has a reason for that encounter. He was the one who taught me to love, gave me my first heartache, my first cry, and the first person i had written my first song. And maybe, still willing to give my whole life with. I still have feelings for him, maybe first love never dies. But i know he is happy right now, even though it's not with me at least i am happy he is. Maybe the song "Minsan lang Kitang Iibigin" was meant for us, because every time we had an encounter, that's the song on the background.

P.S I know this sounds mushy or quite a telenovela, but i want to thank you for reading this entry. : )

Ainan

The Dare Chris Tiu's Talking About During the Bonfire

I've got a chance to surf the net, and get a copy of the dare Chris Tiu said on his blog; It was kinda hilarious, but i applauded the guy for the courageous thing he did.

Whom ever you are; Kudos! for you.

Ainan

"A Song Written for Chris Tiu"

I had this song in my mind for couple of weeks now. I was afraid to materialize this project because I am afraid after i finished this song, i have to let go and stop following Chris Tiu's journey. Because every time i wrote song for my past ex's or special someone the feeling suddenly gone, maybe died by its natural cause. But now I'm writing this entry hoping for you all to appreciate, hoping someday he read this song or someday he can heard this song air on the mainstream. Here's the lyrics of the song, i don't know how to write the melody but it already has one, so feel free to scrutinize;

"UNREACHABLE"

You, came into my life
at the lowest point i had
Maybe, an angel in disguised
You change everything i have
You didn't know by now;
what you have done to me
You made me love again;
even in a dream

You, are so adored
people love you as you are
Superstar, in you're own right
superman in their eyes
An every girl's dream;
so it was for me
Yet the truth is;
You're an impossible dream

Chorus 1:

As i lay my head to sleep
wishing in my dreams
That i could hold you in my arms
although its just a dream
I'll be blissful for that scene
for you're my unreachable, impossible...
STAR

Lucky, the girl you love
maybe she's the happiest girl?!
Having, you as her man
I am being insecure
But fate brought you to me;
hoping for eternity
That destiny will changed;
And turned that ball for me

Chorus 2:

But when i opened up my eyes
tears begin to fall
That i couldn't hold you in my arms
even in my wildest dreams
Sad though it seems
Coz you're my impossible, unreachable..

STAR

Ainan :)

"Nostalgia or Melancholia?"

Its been four months since i went back to Bulacan. I've been busy with work, and some inevitable stuff. Being at home again brought me peace of mind and time to rejuvenate and recuperate. truly, there's no place like home. Although, nothing changed but the fresh air and the joy of being with the company and comforts of your family, kept me felt better.

I forgot to wrote that i came from San Rafael, bulacan. Actually, not that far from manila a one-hour ride away from metropolis. I went home because i need to fetch my mother and nephew back to manila for a week vacation. On the way back to manila, we took an ordinary bus because my mother has motion sickness or in medical term 'vertigo' when on a vehicle. Being on that bus brought back so many memories, its been five or six years since i rode an ordinary type of bus. Maybe, i miss all the pollution, and the noise of all those vendors who sell (chicharon, pinipig, and candies). I remember when i was young we used to took this vehicle, but when i started College i preferred the Aircon one. Not just being 'maarte' but the comfort it brings.

Maybe, things changed a lot. Even a month brings a lot of change. Everyday the world is changing, what i learned is appreciate everything you have right now, and treasure all the memories you had. And if you have the time go back to those places that made you happy, and sentimental to you. So this sounds nostalgic?! isn't it...lols.

Ainan

"18 LOVE QUESTIONS''

I found this questionnaire posted on my bulletin at my Friendster account; If you like it, you can repost it. enjoy...:)


if you opened it, you have to do it,or a loved 1 will be in an accident.

Love Survey: You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY!!-

[01] Are you currently in a relationship?
:nope, not yet.

[02] Have you ever been given a rose?
:yes.

[03] What is your all-time favorite love story movie?
:my sassy girl.

[04] Are you in love right now?
:i don't think so, I'm numb right now.

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate?
:yes!

[06] What's your current problem?
:adjusting to work scheds,and working environment.

[07] Have you ever had your heartbroken?
: all the time.

[08] Your thoughts of online or long distance relationships?
:as long as you can keep the love alive.

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
:yes. yes. yes.

[10] The person your with right now,do you want to spend your life with?
:i haven't found the one.

[11] How many kids do you want to have?
:one or two are enough.

[12] What is/are & your favorite color?
:red, powder blue, magenta.

[13] Who are your celebrity crushes?
: CHRISTOPHER JOHN ALANDY-DY TIU

[14] Do you believe you truly only love once?
: nope.

[15] Imagine you're 40 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married?
:i don't think so. i love deeply.

[16] Do you believe in love at first sight?:
yes.

[17] What song u want to be played at your wedding?
: saving forever for you, you, beginning today, by heart, i finally found someone.

[18] Do you like anyone?
: of course! i still believe in love though it's hurting me now.

re post this as:"18 love questions"

" Toxic" in a Nurse's Points of View

Literally, 'toxic' means poisonous substance that can inflict bodily harms, but in a nurse perspective it means pending work or multiple Doctor's orders or huge patient census. I never been toxic since i started working until yesterday.

My original shift was Am, ordinarily the usual ratio in our unit is three bedsides and one charge nurse. Unluckily, yesterday we only had two bedsides Ma'am Jem and I and Ma'am Tala our charge nurse. We had 13 patients and three admissions, so to sum it up i had eight or nine patients that morning. At the start of the shift, everything went smoothly, until when i started to fed my one patient using gastric tube, i didn't see the feeding Iv on the bedside so i utilized the Toomy syringe that has 50 cc, imagine i have to fed my client with 210 cc using that syringe, that ate my time so much, funny indeed the relative told me "Ito na lang gamitin mo,mas madali, ito iyong ginagamit nila!" gosh! i was humiliated, i overlooked that device. When i am really recovered, the patient tracheostomy released a lot of secretions so i suctioned it. Then i have to prepare all my due medications. I have to fill out all the stationary to plot all the Vital Signs, do charting, catered all the patients and relatives' request. And other pending work i have to attend to.

Much to my dismay, another co associate went absent so they asked me to extend my duty up to 7pm, the "toxiness" wasn't subside until 5:30pm, I have blood transfusion, i have to reinsert Iv's to three of my patients. Two of them had fever and increase blood sugar. To add with my misery i extended the duty up to 11pm, so i had A/P shift. Omg! what a day, i thought i was indefatigable but i was wrong, my energy was depleted. At least i learned about strategies and techniques. :)

Affectionately,

Ainan.

A Nice Article about Chris Tiu

I found this articleon one comment in Chris' blog, so here's the link below you can know him more in a family based aspect. Hope you visit it. :)

http://showbizandstyle.inquirer.net/lifestyle/lifestyle/view/20080921-161957/How-do-you-raise-a-Chris-Tiu

Quotes to Live By

10 Steps to a Healthy Self;

1. Be your own BESTFRIEND.
2. Take TIME to enjoy your life.
3. Let go of the past.
4. Set goals for your life.
5. Talk positively to yourself.
6. Visualize your success behavior.
7. Make choices for your life.
8. Network with others.
9. Write down your family script.
10. Accept yourself as you are.


When i received this quote as an sms, i was touched by its simplicity, and the complex meaning it has, i remember before when i was down and broken, and almost giving up. For the record, i'm not suicidal but there's a time that i wished that i just die to sleep and i could no longer open my eyes in this cruel and unjust world. But, when the time you thought that every aspect of your life was falling apart, a "Divine Intervention" comes in. I always experience that, i will attest to that in your most lowest time, that's the time God came to rescue, suddenly, everything falls back into place you almost felt paradise.

I guess that's the magic and mystery of life. Hope you internalize the qoute above.

Thanks!
Ainan

Random Thoughts (Birthday, One More chance)

Last September 09, it was my birthday, unfortunately i haven't got a chance to celebrate it because i was on duty that day. Honestly, I forgot that it was my birthday, thanks to my friend Karla, because she texted me earlier and later on realized it was my birthday. Good thing when i got home my mother and my sister cooked something for me. It was a plain celebration, but having so much people greet me through texts and emails and comments on friendster, it was one wonderful day to be happy and thankful.

I watched "Boy and Kris" a while ago, and i was happy watching Kristine Hermosa on TV again. they gave a birthday bash for her, and i even cried over when Nyoy Volante sang 'beautiful girl' by Jose Mari Chan, how i wish someone can do the same, i don't know, i want someone to gratify me with such songs like You're Beautiful, She Will be Love or Be my lady. Actually, Kristine and i have the same birth date, we have shared many things in common, same height, same eye color, and same aspiration. We both wanted to be a "Flight Attendant" maybe because the glamour behind the job or the chance to travel around the world. I always say that she's one of my favorite people and i admire her Beauty. She's a Goddess! And i am a danzel in distress.lols Whose my prince?

Last, Wednesday i had DVD marathon and i preferred to watch One More Chance starring Bea Alonzo and John LLoyd Cruz, i wasn't disappointed now it's one of my favorite movie. The plot was simple but with the superb acting and wonderful dialogues, no wonder it made to the box office. I cried over the scene when Poy told his suicidal friend the reason why people leave us even though we loved them so much. The reasoning was so real, and it made an impact on me personally. I agree, we are hurt because we have to search for that one who will accept our mistakes and will change all the wrongs in us to make us right. How i wish i could find my Poy soon, I am one of those Basha, who tried to find herself and still trying to put up herself. The movie was right, you can only love a person if you're whole, so you can give the hundred percent of yourself and your love for that person.

Thanks for reading!

Ainan

An Ordinary Day; Turned out into a Not so Ordinary Day

When i was out at St. Luke's at around 3:30 pm being tired with an eight hours of duty, i thought another ordinary day passed by. The stress of work are all gone, and its now time for a relaxing break. I put on a powder, sprinkled some perfume so the smell of the past wont hunt me while I'm commuting, i am really conscious about how i look, i want to be presentable and look professional always.


But one major disaster happened; When i was about to sat on the chair i picked on the bus, i didn't notice the vomitus spread on the floor, and that time i was busy ogling at Keannu Reeves on the movie "Constantine" that was playing on the bus. When suddenly stepped on the vomitus and slipped on the floor then bumped on the corner where the vomitus was located. To top it all, the vomitus sticked at the hemline of my white pants, on my sock all the way to the shoe. That was grouse, i was really pissed off, i was de-glamorized. The poised ran out of me.:(


After that, i have to walk sidewards like a crab to conceal the stain, imagine, I'm pretty sure it caused a scene:( luckily it doesn't stink! When i was riding on a 'jeepney' towards Rosario Pasig, a guy the same age as mine with a friend companion who just sat beside me, suddenly tapped my shoulders and said "Bro, magkano pamasahe hanggang Rosario?" At that moment, the first thing came to myself, this guy was rude calling me "Bro" maybe, because I'm not used being tag as one. When i was about to reply with dismay on my face, i was shocked because the guy was so cute. He's kinda smart too, based on what i heard on their conversation. Nonetheless he considered me as one of the boys,lols. To think he branded me as 'Bro'?!


When i was on the last vehicle towards home at Caniogan Pasig, i was stunned when a couple just the same age as mine rode on the jeep, i was really, really disappointed when i saw the girlfriend. Oh, my God! the girl was simple (trying to be nice.:), but the guy was so competitive, handsome, tall and great body by the way. He was quite a catch, i was disappointed because another case of 'True Love', such a cliche, but its rampant nowadays.


Actually, i was bitter because i haven't had a relationship for almost three years now. Maybe i do missed being loved and pampered but that's life. Thanks for reading, i know its kinda lack of substance but its quite an adventure for me, and somewhat unusual.

Reviews on My favourite TV shows ( I love, Betty La Fea & )

"It's not the harder you fall, it's the stronger you stand" as Toni Gonzaga said earlier on Entertainment Live interviewing Bea Alonzo for the upcoming Betty la Fea series. The quote really suited the series, because it's what Betty made me realized when i watched the original Colombian version. You may accuse me being cheesy or mushy, but i do love the series even the American version entitled 'Ugly Betty'.


I learned about so many things on life, it teaches you how to be optimistic, and be strong no matter what ordeal arises. Being optimistic is the key value i appreciated on that show. I even practiced what America Ferrera did on the pilot episode, i always start my day looking at the mirror saying (I'm an optimistic, determined and beautiful individual). You know what, it works! Affirming yourself of who and what's your worth, i couldn't fathom what's the magic but it helps me brighten my day.


Another thing is acceptance of who you are, and what life offers you. Betty showed me how to appreciate things i have right now. Loved life, live it to the fullest.
Its ironic that, the people who has everything,are the people who possessed insecurities deep within themselves;The show also exhibit change, being dynamic in a good way. Betty did change physically, but it was gradual, it was a step by step manner, meaning if you want to change yourself, you have to do it slowly you don't have to speed or hurry everything. And the change should come from within, with your own volition. Furthermore, her change was dramatic, she even change her personality, from being shy and timid, to become confident,sophisticated and a woman of substance. But she remains humble and sweet, she retain her beautiful qualities which is being happy with everything.

People always say that looks doesn't matter, but in reality having a pleasing personality really helps a lot. But as many people say what's important is the beauty inside. The maturity, the learning, the experiences, and the way you handle people who you cross along with. To top it all, i do believe that the true thing that can make you happy is be contented of what we have, disappointment comes when we fail to get what we want. I'm not saying that we should stop dreaming or aspiring, what I'm trying to imply is that learn to appreciate what life is offering you, wheter good or bad. Trial;s are there to make us strong, to transform us to become a better person, and don't be afraid to make a mistakes, you will encounter mistakes along the way, through out your life, what's important is you learn from it and it will catapult you to whatever you want to be.


Ainan

My Old Songs Composition 2

Here's another song composition of mine, it was written last 2006 i forgot the exact date but I'm used to put on the date every time i have an output. My muse for this song is my former classmate and friend named Ryan Patrick Danao, at that time he was committed to someone who doesn't seem to appreciate his worth. He's a sweet guy, very funny and goofy a combination a girl will surely swoon over. Hope you'll like it, its a labor of love although one-sided love.


" If I Was the One whose Loving You"

If i was the one whose loving you,
I'll gather my world to offer you
I'll catch all the laughter's and
grow old with you;
But how can i share these to you?!..


If you only know what I'm hiding here,
I'm gatherin' my strenght,
coz it hurts and it kills;
I'm cryin' these tears, Oh! babe can't you hear
but how can i show these to you?!..


Chorus:
(But/that) my heart is not just the same,
And your heart, everyday that i pray;
But how can i express it,
If you will go and break it,
Coz all the time i know that
you're lovin' someone so...


If time will reveal what i'm writin' here,
I'm preparin' myself for the pain i would feel;
The pain of rejection, the hope! and the fear!
But why do I LOVE YOU still?!!!


Coda:
If i was the one whose loving you,
I hope someday i can sing this to you.....:(

List of my Favourite People

I know that in life, there should be no favoritism, there should be balance. But i would like to defy the rule, break the chain by posting people who was or still dear to me. Who played a major role in my life, inculcating, even thought me and polished me as the person i am now. These people that i will give credit defines who i am inside and out; People i categorized as my mentor, companion, friend and my inspiration in life. The people i want to applaud and give my standing ovation.


1. Kevin Roxas- my co-trainee during Nset days, Maui Taylor look-alike. I learned a lot from this 25-year old lady from Roxas City, i admire her simplicity and maturity. I learn a lot of principles from love to different facets of life. She's the one made me realized 'why do i always fall for people who are committed' and that's because all those guys have one thing in common. Because these guys are the people who are considered as the total package (good looking,smart, good conversationalist, bankable) and she was right, these people are the market, and all people wants to have them.


2. Michelle Espiritu-my classmate,group mate,drinking partner, and one of my best friend. Though we're more than ten in our 'barkada' she's the one i considered as one of my truest friend. She knows me inside and out, every detail of my personality. She's my confidante, she's always there when i need someone to listen with all my predicaments, there to give advise and always assured me, that she'll stay no matter what. My sounding board, and I'm her sponge.


3. Sydney Igaya- my Amiga, my friendly ghost, my cousin. She's the one who stayed even everybody got away. She's the only person who knew the 'true' me. All the heartaches, all the crying, she's the witnessed when i first experienced heartbreak. I learned the other side of life from her. I consider her as my first best friend, though the world see her as the black sheep, for me she's the balancing force of my life.


4. Grays Gonzaga- my another group mate and friend. She's my friend from the time i set foot at Fatima University. My duet companion, we shared a lots of videoke sessions together. She has a wonderful and soothing voice, one of the best i ever heard. We really jive when it comes to music, we jell when we duet. She's the first person who appreciated my songs composition. And one of my treasured friend.


5. Ma'am Rei- My first buddy nurse at Our Lady of Mercy, she's the one i admire in my field of profession. She's the so called 'total package', she's beautiful,smart and caring. She possesses the knowledge, the skills and the attitude. I acquired her OC attitude, being obsessive-compulsive is a good trait to be a successful nurse.


6. Regine Velasquez- the Icon, the Asia's Songbird. It's a known fact for all the people who knows me that I'm an avid fan of her. When i was young i really loved her cover versions of Bluer than Blue, You Were There, and so much more to mention. When i was small, i used to sang her song "Kung Maiibabalik Ko lang" on videoke. And for the record, the first song i sang on stage was her phenomenal hit "You've Made Me Stronger". Until now, i used her song as my theme song, when i contemplating or hibernating. I will trade all i have just to have a voice like her, so serene, so powerful, nobody does the 'birit' compared to her. She's a legend.


7. Kristine Hermosa, Kristein Kreuk, Dawn Zulueta-The people i admire when it comes to beauty. Their beauty is classic, so elegant and ethereal. I really consider them as "Goddess" a beauty that will last a lifetime. A gorgeous face combined with intelligence and sophistication, that's describe these ladies. I'm really glad that Kristine Hermosa and I have the same birth date and height,could be fate?.If i was a girl i wish i could be as pretty as them.


8. Oprah Winfrey, Kris Aquino, Boy Abunda- These people are famous because they are 'masters of their own craft'. The wisdom is incomparable, when they speak i couldn't help but to listen. They always make sure that there's substance in every words they utter. And they always flagged that reading is the best tool to acquire knowledge and wisdom, (but experience still is the best teacher). That's why i admire these people for sharing what they know and what they have for their following.


9. Christopher John Alandy-dy Tiu- also known as Chris Tiu, its an open book that i consider him as my 'ideal man'. he's quite perfect for me though there's no such thing as perfect but physically and intelligent wise i really adore him. He's my weakness (tall,fair,lean and most of all chinky-eyed) but there's a lot to admire from this guy, he's a management engineering graduate, Captain of Ateneo Blue Eagles, a business man, a 'kagawad' to his barangay, a Dean's Lister, a print and commercial model, a host and many more hats he wear. He's really an inspiration to everyone, a dream boy, maybe a prince. I applaud him for staying grounded despite of all the successes his enjoying right now.


10. Melanie I. Talusan- my sister, my "idol". She's the bread winner of our family when my father died. She's the one responsible and i should give credit why i attained my status now. She's the one who sent me to college and made it possible for me to became a nurse. She's a truly loving, caring and generous sister, all her efforts are well recognized by the family. I admire her for being a good person inside and out, an ex-print ad model, a beauty queen. Truly ethereal beauty that comes from a good heart.


11. Remedios Igaya- my mother, the very sole reason why am i existing in this world. The fuel that drives me to continue my passion, my battle in life. My source of strenght, truly there's no greater person than your mother. Just to raised us to become a better person, she hurdled so many sufferings that you couldn't imagine. She endured all the pain just to kept us safe and warmth. My mother is my Hero, no one can ever harm me while she still around. A very kind, loving and wonderful person. I thanked the lord above for sharing to me this one marvelous gift i should be proud off, and that's my mother.

Happy Anniversary, Nurses of June 2007

It was last Sunday of August,when the results of our Licensure Examinationfor Nurses released. I was in my sister's house in Pasig when she got a text message from her former boss and Ex-commissioner of the PRC that i do passed the exam. We received the text in the afternoon, but the official results came out that evening. I slept earlier that day, when i woke up at around 10:00 in the evening my cell phone's inbox was full with messages, i even got a message from the people who i thought will never give me one. Unfortunately, i was ran out of credit that time so the following day, that's the time i thanked all those people. And i found out that three of my friends did pass the exam namely Mitch, Ehros, and Jordan. Unluckily, one of my good friend didn't make it but we're praying for her success.


After that, the Oath taking Ceremony was held at the Araneta Coliseum last October and i still kept my ticket on my treasure box. The registration for our license number took placed at November,after a month i received my license. Mitch and i started applying last week of November, we passed resumes' at the "Our lady of Mercy" in pulilan, and "BMMG" in Sta. Maria, where she was called for an interview and later on hired as a staff nurse,unfortunately, that hospital didn't call me but i was happy for my friend.


Last, December The Medical City called for an initial exam dated on January 7, 2008. There we're seventy plus who took the exam but only twelve passed the exam, unfortunately i did flop the exam, the exam was so difficult, i consider it as one of the most challenging exams i hurdled;At the same month, Ehros and i applied in numerous hospitals here in manila, to name a few,we went to Capitol Medical Center, Manila Doctor's, Lourdes hospital, and Cardinal Santos in Mandaluyong in just one day, so we had a trip in the whole metropolis.


After a month we received no response from all the hospitals we applied;It was so depressing, so many months of unemployment, with all the pressures out there the internal and the xternal asking, "why we're you still idle, stagnant and jobless. I talked to Ehros and some friends who suffered the same fate, and we all agree it was one of the lowest part of our lives or careers. But, God is good, He really does things in mysterious ways. When the time i was almost giving up, i received a text message from "Our Lady of Mercy" last February and i was scheduled for an interview and exam. At the end of that day,all sixteen of us who was called for the exam was hired as "trainee" or volunteers and started the day after. I gained new friends there that i will never forget, there's Sheryl, Gaynen, Candy. I even had great mentors like Ma'am Rei, Ynang and many more. It was my first service to my patients that's why i put my best foot forward.


After almost two months of training at Mercy and two areas of rotations, a better opportunity came.The St. Luke's Medical Center informed me that i passed their clinical exam, and i was on my way for the physical exam to joined the next batch of trainees. It was hard that time because i have to choose between the hospital who i learned to love or the the best hospital in town?! To cut the story short, i preferred SLMC and joined the NSET Batch 03-08, which opens a lot of doors for learning and opportunities. Furthermore, i gained lot of friends and still counting; On my third day of training Ma'am Rei informed me thru Fs that the chief nurse of Mercy was looking for me, she said that two days after i AWOL, they we're going to hire me;After all the screenings and learnings i had in SLMC, i have no remorse i chose this institution.

As i contemplating writing this entry, i remember that it was my father's dream for his "bunso" to be a nurse, when he was hospitalized at the Philippine Heart Center, and saw a nurse same as my built, with resemblance on my physical attributes he told my sister he would be happy seeing me as a Nurse. Though he died last 2002, January before my high school graduation, i know he's proud how far my career went, with all the achievements i had even if its small, still its an achievement; When i was in third year high school, i dreamt to became a nurse, and I'm proud to say "I'm living my dream, and I'm walking the path i aspired before".


That's why don't stop dreaming. Nothing is impossible. I may be a nurse but i'm just a few step towards my vision. I'm working now for my nclex exam, and glad to be newly hired associate of SLMC. Remember, always make your life Shine, to be the light and the guide of others...thanks, Go! Nurses.

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My Old Poems composition

It was August 5, 2005, when i wrote this poem. Again it was a labor of love for my friend named Brix Vilda, who happens to be my board mate that time, although we had so many fond memories but things didn't work out the way i want it to be, because at that time he was committed with a common friend of ours. So here's the poem, I hope you like it.


"SERENDIPITY"

I may not be the one you want
I may not be the one you need
But i can't help myself wonder
" Why still You, my heart desire!"


I'm sorry if i feel this way
I'm sorry if i changed the game
But how can i help it?.
You're such a good man
And I'm vulnerable during those times


You don't have to react
You don't have to respond
Coz i know you're seeing someone
But I'll never be that someone...


I'm a broken person
I'm a scattered pieces
But i won't ask you to pick-up my pieces
Because you're picking someone Else's


It's time to wake up
It's time to think up
My dreams with you is wasted;
And all my hopes culminated
You'll never see my worth
And i can't wait for that time to work;
You have said "you'll never love me''
I understand, I'm just someone who has been
your pastime. :(

Just Random Thoughts

When i was watching TV awhile ago, i couldn't help but cried on a scene with the Korean telenovela entitled "Hello, My Lady", the scene was a guy surprised a girl he loves on her birthday, he arranged a birthday party for her, the most touching part was when the guy sang "SHE" with full admiration for the girl, just like the scene on my favorite movie "My Sassy Girl", when Gyun Wo surprised the girl during her class, brought her a long stem rose, while the girl even surprised him playing the piano on her recital with the song "Pachelbel Cannon"; And its really reminds me of my dream; before i was one of those people who aspire to become a millionaire, have my dream beach house or rest house in tagaytay, but as time goes by and as i matured things changed, even my dreams changed. I do believe that the only permanent thing in this world is change, life is dynamic; from a million dollar worth of dreams, mine changed into a simpler one,i just want to change my family's ways of living and as long as i can buy all my necessary things, I'm fine with it. But there's one dream that caused me to cry with those scenes I've mentioned, all my life i always wanted to have someone beside me, i always picture myself sitting on the passenger seat with that someone,cook for him, prepare his clothes pamper and take care of him, and i always wanted that someday someone will surprise me with those kinds of things just like those gentlemen did to their lady.I'll be the most happiest person if someone will dedicate, play the piano, do something sweet, or sing, "BE My Lady" or "She Will Be love", these songs really strikes me the most, being wanted and loved, admire and taking cared of. It shows that i am really a hopeless romantic type. I'm tired doing all the sacrifices for all the people i love, and i know i deserve a treat, everyone deserves a treat. I don't want to spread that i ain't blissful as a matter of fact i am, but there are times you will feel the emptiness, loneliness, or longings.

There were moments that life will uplift you, One time i was stunned that there really people who admire you though you're not a celebrity or a famous personality. i don't want to brag or something but i really appreciate when my friend told me that if there's one thing she's envious or want to trade in me, and that's my success in career, although i didn't consider now that I'm successful because I'm just halfway in my goals in life, but i do consider all my achievements as a success little by little, step by step. It really moves me that a certain part of my life that before doesn't matter for me, unknowingly, a thing that i should be proud of.

I know that the Lord above saved the best thing, the best person for me, that's why I'm not in a hurry, i just enjoying life, all the Ups and Downs, maybe one part of my life is successful which is my career and my love life is poor, but as many people would say career and love is not always balance there's one aspect that always suffer, but i have strong faith that soon the other aspect of my life will blossomed and flourished, so I'm saving forever and my love for that special someone and final words "the true meaning of fate is building a bridge of chance for the one you love". So, we have to work on it, it takes patience and a prayer. thanks for reading.

My Old Songs Composition

There are certain people who doesn't know i write poems and songs and even sketch; Whenever I'm depress or emotionally unstable that's the time i usually had a great output, there two songs composition of mine that's so dear to me, one i wrote three years ago if I'm not mistaken. so here's the song hope you like the lyrics.This song my inspiration was Mark Anthony Escanilla hope someday he will hear or read this song.

"My Heart Only Beats for You"

I'm Here all alone, after seein' you walking by
I don't know how to hide, the tears that begin to fall
But despite all the pain, the fact you can't convey
my heart kept pounding, though my world's breakin'

Chorus:
Hope you give me even a glance
able to see that I'm lonely
Hope you smile towards my way
Coz i do love you, and my heart only beats for you

Now I'm writin' this line, and all I'm thinkin' is you
Every time each moment passed, only makes me realized
that you are not mine, but for someone else
Would you stop me from crying, because your name I'm still screamin'

Bridge:
Coz it's hard to let go, when the feeling is true
Now i promised myself, only you i will share my life
share my life.

Wathcing UAAP at the Big Dome (Seeing Chris Tiu for the first time)

Last Sunday I watched UAAP at Studio 23 and found out that Ateneo's next game will be held at the Araneta Coliseum last August 21, right there and then I decided that I'm going to watched it myself, its time for me to see my crush, my so-called 'ideal man' you already know, its Chris. Then, last tuesday I had an agreement,with my friend "Tinay" now newly baptized as 'teenie' that she'd accompany me to the game.

And it was Thursday, early in the morning Teenie texted me just to informed me, that she can't come because her mother asked her to visit her grandmother, of course, family first before pleasure so I'd said It's OK! with me, i understood her reasons. Mid that morning my other co-trainee named Ron asked me to have our vaccination that was overdue for two months if I'm certain. I was ambivalent that time, If I would go to SLMC to have my vaccine or watched the game, then i decided since the game was scheduled at around 4:00pm, I could still catch the game if I want too. So, Ron and I met at around 2:00 at St. Luke's and proceeded to the billing and paid our vaccines, unluckily, I only had Hep B, because the Flu vaccine was out of stock. We finished at 2:45,I was hesitant If i will still go to watched because I had no companion seems cheap right?!, so desperate!lols,then Ron convinced me and persisted I should go, So my inner desire won.

I went there and arrived at 3:00, because this will be my first UAAP experienced and first time to see Chris Tiu so I decided to bought a patron ticket so I can see his face nearer. Luckily, at the side of the bench of the Blue Eagles where I landed, when I arrived the game between Adamson and UP were still ongoing so i watched it and realized that UP has some good looking players like Dela Victoria, while I was absorb by the game i found out that Chris' brother Charles Tiu was five-seats adjacent in front of me, so much resemblance with the brothers. Nonetheless, it was 3:45 so the Blue Eagle's players entered I was so absorbed texting when the crowd screamed, then I looked up and saw that Chris was now in the room, I was so nervous, palpitating, I couldn't catch my breath, what an awesome view, omg! I was bewilderwed, he is so dead gorgeous, then I realized He's really my Ideal Man. During the game I was lucky I'm near at their bench, so I ogled at him a trillion,zillion times. It was a hard and rough game for the team, the UE Red Warriors we're so COMPETITIVE, they raised against each other well.

During the fourth round, it was the crucial point for the Ateneo, UE was ahead with 3 points and the time left was 19 seconds, when suddenly Chris made a major turnover for the game, he made this magnificent 3-point shot that made the game tied. I was so happy about that, during overtime Chris made again a 3-point and a lay-up shots that made the Ateneo ahead, but he had an injury when the game was near to end.And the team won, gained the status of 10-1 at the UAAP. I was so happy seeing him for the first time, one hallmark of my life that i would never forget, i learned that if you want something; don't hesitate to do it, achieve it. Hopefully, I have more encounter with MR. Christopher John Alandy-Dy Tiu, my hero. thanks for reading.

"Watching My ideal guy playing at the UAAP"

It's an open book to all the people who knows me that I consider Chris Tiu as my ultimate 'Ideal Man'. For the reason that physically he possessed all the qualities I'm looking for a person, tall, fair, lean and most of all 'chinky-eyed'.

Personality wise, he's so smart, a good conversationalist, business minded, and based on what I heard, they say that he's kind too, he's multi-faceted, there so many hats he wears,including being the captain ball of Ateneo Blue Eagles, an SK chairman, a business man, a co-host of "Pinoy Records", also soon to host "Ripley's Believe it or not.

Enough of all the introduction, I'm so happy watching UAAP awhile ago, Ateneo vs. Adamson, though Chris didn't carried the game, it really enticed me to watched him on TV, by the way I read on some blogs that his ideal girl is chinky-eyed and petite, that sure excludes me because I do have almond-shaped eyes, but i know Chris is happy with his longtime girlfriend named Clarrise Ong, just sharing my thoughts, hope it has a substance. Thanks for reading my blog.

My Nurse Staff Effectiveness training (NSET)

"The 'End' of some body's time, is my time to 'Shine'".

Gosh! July 3,2008 will be the date of our graduation in NSET at St. luke's Medical Center, after this we're gonna face the real chaos of our profession. I will miss all my co-trainees especially "Weng" my best buddy on the field, on singing, teasing and mocking our co-trainees. The sinister sister indeed.

My Chinito/Chinky-eyed crushes

Name: Christopher John Alandy-dy Tiu

Age:22

Basketball Cager/Host-Pinoy Records

It was only last October 2008, when I knew Chris Tiu. I was retrieving images at g-blogs when I accidentally noticed his picture wearing a jersey # 17, the first expression was He's "HoT" and drop-dead handsome. Actually my preference for an ideal guy is Tall, fair, lean and most of all Chinky-eyed. He is somehow a good catch because he is so smart a graduate of Management Engineering & now studying for master's degree. He has a business solely own named "Chinky Chicken" which sells rice meals in front of Ateneo De Manila Ubiversity. Now, his back with Ateneo Blue Eagles for another season. Chris tiu is truly deserving of the title "Tiuperman". "Kudos " to Chris Tiu.

"A lot like LOVE"

"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place....I am the force!!!!!!!!!!"

Last June 02-06, 2008, our clinical rotation with my co-trainee Bong on St. Luke's Medical Center was on Cancer 2 a special Onco Unit. When I got there I've noticed this guy who happened to be the clinical pharmacist on the unit. I heard that temporarily he will be in the unit for one week, actually his original post is in Cancer 1. When I arrived I noticed his stealing glimpse and glances, at first i wasn't conscious because the heck I was late for a couple of minutes. He was cute stereotypical filipino, not to tall approximately 5'4" in height, fair, with braces, handsome i mean. When I proceed with my delegated task I always catch him staring at me, at first i felt weird but there's "Kilig". Then he kept on staying at my side, I felt butterflies on my stomach when he's around. On my third day, I was joking with Bong that he's my husband, good thing with Bong he rode on my jokes and kept on teasing me, at lunch time I even joked and introduced him to my closest trainee named "Weng", she said it was my first time that my "taste" got wrong in terms of picking a good looking guy. Let just say love is blind, such a cliche' indeed. But, when my last day of duty came, I was disappointed because the girl used to be the pharmacist of that unit took over. I saw him when I was in the elevator after my break, I saw his eyes i wasn't know what hidden message he was trying to imply. But the whole duty was full of emptiness and I was lonely the whole day. Folks! The lucky guy named is "JERWIN L. LIM RPh" working in ST. Luke's Medical Center. Pray for the best that Our path meet again. Hope I've got his number while his reciting it during the phone conversation. But what more can I say, Love come, Love goes.

"Charice Pempengco, The Incredible voice"

"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place....I am the force!!!!!!!!!!"

I watched in the news a while ago that Charice Pempengco sang in Las Vegas in line with other artist like Josh Groban whose handler is the man behind the success full singers like Celine Dion, Cher, Lara Fabian & many more. This 15-year old girl is really amazing her version of songs like "And I Am telling you" & "I Will Always love you" gives me shiver everytime I heard her rendition, she has this wide vocal range and truly a vocal olympian, attest to that she has been guested on "The Ellen de Generes show, and recently "Oprah", and Ms. Winfrey was stunned by her vocal prowess, this kind of talents makes me proud to be a Filipino. "KUDOS" for Charice continue making us Filipinos proud.

"David Cook" The Unexpected Winner!

"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place....I am the force!!!!!!!!!!"

I watched the finals of "American Idol" last night, & I was so surprised with the result. though I am not a fan of David Archuleta it was a sudden change of destiny, because during the final two showdown, Simon gave the credits of the three rounds to Archuleta.... Nonetheless, I am so happy for David Cook, because I myself is self confess "DC" fan, I love his style of arranging popular music & create it his own, his versions of "Hello" & my favourite of all "Always Be My Baby".:

chris tiu's Hanford endorsement

"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place....I am the force!!!!!!!!!!"

Chris tiu is the new face of " Hanford IcE", If you passed by the NLEX he has a billboard there along with the other endorser. Here are some pictures to look for, and he has His own blog just visit http;//www.chris-tiu.blogspot.com so keep connected to all tiunatics there.

"Life After Nurse Licensure Examination"

After june 10-11, 2007 board exam life became so idle.I'm sure most newly graduated nurses would agree with me.Waiting for the results take two months or so because in my case, the result was released august 30, 2007. After that one month after the "oath taking" followed, the most agonizing part was waiting for your license to be released, mine was december so try to calculate how many months i became stagnant. I started applying that month when i received my license. And i received a call from "TMC" but unfortunately I wasn't able to passed their clinical exam. Last February I received a call from "Our Lady Of Mercy Hospital" in pulilan,bulacan and I was accepted as a volunteer/trainee, i had reliever experienced their and two days prior to my deployment "SLMC" called-up for Physical exam, so it means i passed their psyche & clinical exam by the way the exam was 100 items & the passing i think was 75%. So in other words i am Awool in OLMC. Now my 3-month training in St. Luke's is on going, i'm on my 2nd month already. I belong to NSET batch 03-08, hopefully i will be deployed soon. Wish me goodluck guys. To my colleague don't lose hope. that's the trend today the long jurassic years waiting, there'll come a time you'll be deppressed for being stagnant, but have faith & always pray. My next entry will be my training experienced. :)