My Old Poems composition

It was August 5, 2005, when i wrote this poem. Again it was a labor of love for my friend named Brix Vilda, who happens to be my board mate that time, although we had so many fond memories but things didn't work out the way i want it to be, because at that time he was committed with a common friend of ours. So here's the poem, I hope you like it.


"SERENDIPITY"

I may not be the one you want
I may not be the one you need
But i can't help myself wonder
" Why still You, my heart desire!"


I'm sorry if i feel this way
I'm sorry if i changed the game
But how can i help it?.
You're such a good man
And I'm vulnerable during those times


You don't have to react
You don't have to respond
Coz i know you're seeing someone
But I'll never be that someone...


I'm a broken person
I'm a scattered pieces
But i won't ask you to pick-up my pieces
Because you're picking someone Else's


It's time to wake up
It's time to think up
My dreams with you is wasted;
And all my hopes culminated
You'll never see my worth
And i can't wait for that time to work;
You have said "you'll never love me''
I understand, I'm just someone who has been
your pastime. :(

Just Random Thoughts

When i was watching TV awhile ago, i couldn't help but cried on a scene with the Korean telenovela entitled "Hello, My Lady", the scene was a guy surprised a girl he loves on her birthday, he arranged a birthday party for her, the most touching part was when the guy sang "SHE" with full admiration for the girl, just like the scene on my favorite movie "My Sassy Girl", when Gyun Wo surprised the girl during her class, brought her a long stem rose, while the girl even surprised him playing the piano on her recital with the song "Pachelbel Cannon"; And its really reminds me of my dream; before i was one of those people who aspire to become a millionaire, have my dream beach house or rest house in tagaytay, but as time goes by and as i matured things changed, even my dreams changed. I do believe that the only permanent thing in this world is change, life is dynamic; from a million dollar worth of dreams, mine changed into a simpler one,i just want to change my family's ways of living and as long as i can buy all my necessary things, I'm fine with it. But there's one dream that caused me to cry with those scenes I've mentioned, all my life i always wanted to have someone beside me, i always picture myself sitting on the passenger seat with that someone,cook for him, prepare his clothes pamper and take care of him, and i always wanted that someday someone will surprise me with those kinds of things just like those gentlemen did to their lady.I'll be the most happiest person if someone will dedicate, play the piano, do something sweet, or sing, "BE My Lady" or "She Will Be love", these songs really strikes me the most, being wanted and loved, admire and taking cared of. It shows that i am really a hopeless romantic type. I'm tired doing all the sacrifices for all the people i love, and i know i deserve a treat, everyone deserves a treat. I don't want to spread that i ain't blissful as a matter of fact i am, but there are times you will feel the emptiness, loneliness, or longings.

There were moments that life will uplift you, One time i was stunned that there really people who admire you though you're not a celebrity or a famous personality. i don't want to brag or something but i really appreciate when my friend told me that if there's one thing she's envious or want to trade in me, and that's my success in career, although i didn't consider now that I'm successful because I'm just halfway in my goals in life, but i do consider all my achievements as a success little by little, step by step. It really moves me that a certain part of my life that before doesn't matter for me, unknowingly, a thing that i should be proud of.

I know that the Lord above saved the best thing, the best person for me, that's why I'm not in a hurry, i just enjoying life, all the Ups and Downs, maybe one part of my life is successful which is my career and my love life is poor, but as many people would say career and love is not always balance there's one aspect that always suffer, but i have strong faith that soon the other aspect of my life will blossomed and flourished, so I'm saving forever and my love for that special someone and final words "the true meaning of fate is building a bridge of chance for the one you love". So, we have to work on it, it takes patience and a prayer. thanks for reading.

"A lot like LOVE"

"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place....I am the force!!!!!!!!!!"

Last June 02-06, 2008, our clinical rotation with my co-trainee Bong on St. Luke's Medical Center was on Cancer 2 a special Onco Unit. When I got there I've noticed this guy who happened to be the clinical pharmacist on the unit. I heard that temporarily he will be in the unit for one week, actually his original post is in Cancer 1. When I arrived I noticed his stealing glimpse and glances, at first i wasn't conscious because the heck I was late for a couple of minutes. He was cute stereotypical filipino, not to tall approximately 5'4" in height, fair, with braces, handsome i mean. When I proceed with my delegated task I always catch him staring at me, at first i felt weird but there's "Kilig". Then he kept on staying at my side, I felt butterflies on my stomach when he's around. On my third day, I was joking with Bong that he's my husband, good thing with Bong he rode on my jokes and kept on teasing me, at lunch time I even joked and introduced him to my closest trainee named "Weng", she said it was my first time that my "taste" got wrong in terms of picking a good looking guy. Let just say love is blind, such a cliche' indeed. But, when my last day of duty came, I was disappointed because the girl used to be the pharmacist of that unit took over. I saw him when I was in the elevator after my break, I saw his eyes i wasn't know what hidden message he was trying to imply. But the whole duty was full of emptiness and I was lonely the whole day. Folks! The lucky guy named is "JERWIN L. LIM RPh" working in ST. Luke's Medical Center. Pray for the best that Our path meet again. Hope I've got his number while his reciting it during the phone conversation. But what more can I say, Love come, Love goes.