The guy name is Mark Anthony Escanilla, I had this feeling for him since grade six, and eventually stop loving him, (if i did) when i was in my third year as a nurse and went to manila.
I have plenty of memories about this guy, i even consider him as my soul mate, because during those times i swoon over him, we always wore the same color of shirts, and wherever i went he was there. Furthermore, he witnessed all the embarrassing moments of my life, all the tripping, fumbling on the road, all the wounds and those scars i gained from those freak tripping.lols.
Actually, he's my first emblem of my ideal guy (now its Chris Tiu), he stands 5'8" tall, chinky-eyed, fair skinned, medium almost slim bodied, we've been textmates last 2004, and built a mutual relationship, i even agreed to jump on a relationship with him, though he had a girlfriend that time for about three months, and that girl named was Mariela. The relationship last for about a month because i decided to end it up, though he said, he didn't love the girl, and only his friends forced him to court her. I defended that if he really not in love with that girl, why does he still continue going on with that crap, that's why i thought of some bluff to end our relationship, i can't stand being the second best or the mistress. I haven't met the girl yet, and only saw her pictures on Mak Mak's FS account. She's a plain simple girl, and i know he love her so much, they are still together up to now, if I'm not mistaken they are cohabiting and in their five or six years. I still do have access to Mak mak's account because we exchanged password before.
Actually, he's my first emblem of my ideal guy (now its Chris Tiu), he stands 5'8" tall, chinky-eyed, fair skinned, medium almost slim bodied, we've been textmates last 2004, and built a mutual relationship, i even agreed to jump on a relationship with him, though he had a girlfriend that time for about three months, and that girl named was Mariela. The relationship last for about a month because i decided to end it up, though he said, he didn't love the girl, and only his friends forced him to court her. I defended that if he really not in love with that girl, why does he still continue going on with that crap, that's why i thought of some bluff to end our relationship, i can't stand being the second best or the mistress. I haven't met the girl yet, and only saw her pictures on Mak Mak's FS account. She's a plain simple girl, and i know he love her so much, they are still together up to now, if I'm not mistaken they are cohabiting and in their five or six years. I still do have access to Mak mak's account because we exchanged password before.
I never saw him again, and still so many stories i haven't posted yet, i will tell the whole story when i have the time. I saw him again last October 7, all the way to Manila while he was his way home to Talacsan, i only had a glimpse of him because he was riding on a tricycle that time and i was walking towards the Bus Terminal. Funny, that i was staring at this one guy i constantly had the same Jeep to ride, after that guy passed by i saw Mak Mak looking at me, i only stared at him for a second and looked away, because i know Mariela was with him.
I don't know what i felt at that time, but i know God has a reason for that encounter. He was the one who taught me to love, gave me my first heartache, my first cry, and the first person i had written my first song. And maybe, still willing to give my whole life with. I still have feelings for him, maybe first love never dies. But i know he is happy right now, even though it's not with me at least i am happy he is. Maybe the song "Minsan lang Kitang Iibigin" was meant for us, because every time we had an encounter, that's the song on the background.
P.S I know this sounds mushy or quite a telenovela, but i want to thank you for reading this entry. : )
Ainan
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new guy? hehe. i tot cris was irreplacable
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