When i was out at St. Luke's at around 3:30 pm being tired with an eight hours of duty, i thought another ordinary day passed by. The stress of work are all gone, and its now time for a relaxing break. I put on a powder, sprinkled some perfume so the smell of the past wont hunt me while I'm commuting, i am really conscious about how i look, i want to be presentable and look professional always.
But one major disaster happened; When i was about to sat on the chair i picked on the bus, i didn't notice the vomitus spread on the floor, and that time i was busy ogling at Keannu Reeves on the movie "Constantine" that was playing on the bus. When suddenly stepped on the vomitus and slipped on the floor then bumped on the corner where the vomitus was located. To top it all, the vomitus sticked at the hemline of my white pants, on my sock all the way to the shoe. That was grouse, i was really pissed off, i was de-glamorized. The poised ran out of me.:(
After that, i have to walk sidewards like a crab to conceal the stain, imagine, I'm pretty sure it caused a scene:( luckily it doesn't stink! When i was riding on a 'jeepney' towards Rosario Pasig, a guy the same age as mine with a friend companion who just sat beside me, suddenly tapped my shoulders and said "Bro, magkano pamasahe hanggang Rosario?" At that moment, the first thing came to myself, this guy was rude calling me "Bro" maybe, because I'm not used being tag as one. When i was about to reply with dismay on my face, i was shocked because the guy was so cute. He's kinda smart too, based on what i heard on their conversation. Nonetheless he considered me as one of the boys,lols. To think he branded me as 'Bro'?!
When i was on the last vehicle towards home at Caniogan Pasig, i was stunned when a couple just the same age as mine rode on the jeep, i was really, really disappointed when i saw the girlfriend. Oh, my God! the girl was simple (trying to be nice.:), but the guy was so competitive, handsome, tall and great body by the way. He was quite a catch, i was disappointed because another case of 'True Love', such a cliche, but its rampant nowadays.
Actually, i was bitter because i haven't had a relationship for almost three years now. Maybe i do missed being loved and pampered but that's life. Thanks for reading, i know its kinda lack of substance but its quite an adventure for me, and somewhat unusual.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Reviews on My favourite TV shows ( I love, Betty La Fea & )
"It's not the harder you fall, it's the stronger you stand" as Toni Gonzaga said earlier on Entertainment Live interviewing Bea Alonzo for the upcoming Betty la Fea series. The quote really suited the series, because it's what Betty made me realized when i watched the original Colombian version. You may accuse me being cheesy or mushy, but i do love the series even the American version entitled 'Ugly Betty'.
I learned about so many things on life, it teaches you how to be optimistic, and be strong no matter what ordeal arises. Being optimistic is the key value i appreciated on that show. I even practiced what America Ferrera did on the pilot episode, i always start my day looking at the mirror saying (I'm an optimistic, determined and beautiful individual). You know what, it works! Affirming yourself of who and what's your worth, i couldn't fathom what's the magic but it helps me brighten my day.
Another thing is acceptance of who you are, and what life offers you. Betty showed me how to appreciate things i have right now. Loved life, live it to the fullest.
Its ironic that, the people who has everything,are the people who possessed insecurities deep within themselves;The show also exhibit change, being dynamic in a good way. Betty did change physically, but it was gradual, it was a step by step manner, meaning if you want to change yourself, you have to do it slowly you don't have to speed or hurry everything. And the change should come from within, with your own volition. Furthermore, her change was dramatic, she even change her personality, from being shy and timid, to become confident,sophisticated and a woman of substance. But she remains humble and sweet, she retain her beautiful qualities which is being happy with everything.
People always say that looks doesn't matter, but in reality having a pleasing personality really helps a lot. But as many people say what's important is the beauty inside. The maturity, the learning, the experiences, and the way you handle people who you cross along with. To top it all, i do believe that the true thing that can make you happy is be contented of what we have, disappointment comes when we fail to get what we want. I'm not saying that we should stop dreaming or aspiring, what I'm trying to imply is that learn to appreciate what life is offering you, wheter good or bad. Trial;s are there to make us strong, to transform us to become a better person, and don't be afraid to make a mistakes, you will encounter mistakes along the way, through out your life, what's important is you learn from it and it will catapult you to whatever you want to be.
Ainan
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
My Old Songs Composition 2
Here's another song composition of mine, it was written last 2006 i forgot the exact date but I'm used to put on the date every time i have an output. My muse for this song is my former classmate and friend named Ryan Patrick Danao, at that time he was committed to someone who doesn't seem to appreciate his worth. He's a sweet guy, very funny and goofy a combination a girl will surely swoon over. Hope you'll like it, its a labor of love although one-sided love.
" If I Was the One whose Loving You"
If i was the one whose loving you,
I'll gather my world to offer you
I'll catch all the laughter's and
grow old with you;
But how can i share these to you?!..
If you only know what I'm hiding here,
I'm gatherin' my strenght,
coz it hurts and it kills;
I'm cryin' these tears, Oh! babe can't you hear
but how can i show these to you?!..
Chorus:
(But/that) my heart is not just the same,
And your heart, everyday that i pray;
But how can i express it,
If you will go and break it,
Coz all the time i know that
you're lovin' someone so...
If time will reveal what i'm writin' here,
I'm preparin' myself for the pain i would feel;
The pain of rejection, the hope! and the fear!
But why do I LOVE YOU still?!!!
Coda:
If i was the one whose loving you,
I hope someday i can sing this to you.....:(
" If I Was the One whose Loving You"
If i was the one whose loving you,
I'll gather my world to offer you
I'll catch all the laughter's and
grow old with you;
But how can i share these to you?!..
If you only know what I'm hiding here,
I'm gatherin' my strenght,
coz it hurts and it kills;
I'm cryin' these tears, Oh! babe can't you hear
but how can i show these to you?!..
Chorus:
(But/that) my heart is not just the same,
And your heart, everyday that i pray;
But how can i express it,
If you will go and break it,
Coz all the time i know that
you're lovin' someone so...
If time will reveal what i'm writin' here,
I'm preparin' myself for the pain i would feel;
The pain of rejection, the hope! and the fear!
But why do I LOVE YOU still?!!!
Coda:
If i was the one whose loving you,
I hope someday i can sing this to you.....:(
Sunday, August 31, 2008
List of my Favourite People
I know that in life, there should be no favoritism, there should be balance. But i would like to defy the rule, break the chain by posting people who was or still dear to me. Who played a major role in my life, inculcating, even thought me and polished me as the person i am now. These people that i will give credit defines who i am inside and out; People i categorized as my mentor, companion, friend and my inspiration in life. The people i want to applaud and give my standing ovation.
1. Kevin Roxas- my co-trainee during Nset days, Maui Taylor look-alike. I learned a lot from this 25-year old lady from Roxas City, i admire her simplicity and maturity. I learn a lot of principles from love to different facets of life. She's the one made me realized 'why do i always fall for people who are committed' and that's because all those guys have one thing in common. Because these guys are the people who are considered as the total package (good looking,smart, good conversationalist, bankable) and she was right, these people are the market, and all people wants to have them.
2. Michelle Espiritu-my classmate,group mate,drinking partner, and one of my best friend. Though we're more than ten in our 'barkada' she's the one i considered as one of my truest friend. She knows me inside and out, every detail of my personality. She's my confidante, she's always there when i need someone to listen with all my predicaments, there to give advise and always assured me, that she'll stay no matter what. My sounding board, and I'm her sponge.
3. Sydney Igaya- my Amiga, my friendly ghost, my cousin. She's the one who stayed even everybody got away. She's the only person who knew the 'true' me. All the heartaches, all the crying, she's the witnessed when i first experienced heartbreak. I learned the other side of life from her. I consider her as my first best friend, though the world see her as the black sheep, for me she's the balancing force of my life.
4. Grays Gonzaga- my another group mate and friend. She's my friend from the time i set foot at Fatima University. My duet companion, we shared a lots of videoke sessions together. She has a wonderful and soothing voice, one of the best i ever heard. We really jive when it comes to music, we jell when we duet. She's the first person who appreciated my songs composition. And one of my treasured friend.
5. Ma'am Rei- My first buddy nurse at Our Lady of Mercy, she's the one i admire in my field of profession. She's the so called 'total package', she's beautiful,smart and caring. She possesses the knowledge, the skills and the attitude. I acquired her OC attitude, being obsessive-compulsive is a good trait to be a successful nurse.
6. Regine Velasquez- the Icon, the Asia's Songbird. It's a known fact for all the people who knows me that I'm an avid fan of her. When i was young i really loved her cover versions of Bluer than Blue, You Were There, and so much more to mention. When i was small, i used to sang her song "Kung Maiibabalik Ko lang" on videoke. And for the record, the first song i sang on stage was her phenomenal hit "You've Made Me Stronger". Until now, i used her song as my theme song, when i contemplating or hibernating. I will trade all i have just to have a voice like her, so serene, so powerful, nobody does the 'birit' compared to her. She's a legend.
7. Kristine Hermosa, Kristein Kreuk, Dawn Zulueta-The people i admire when it comes to beauty. Their beauty is classic, so elegant and ethereal. I really consider them as "Goddess" a beauty that will last a lifetime. A gorgeous face combined with intelligence and sophistication, that's describe these ladies. I'm really glad that Kristine Hermosa and I have the same birth date and height,could be fate?.If i was a girl i wish i could be as pretty as them.
8. Oprah Winfrey, Kris Aquino, Boy Abunda- These people are famous because they are 'masters of their own craft'. The wisdom is incomparable, when they speak i couldn't help but to listen. They always make sure that there's substance in every words they utter. And they always flagged that reading is the best tool to acquire knowledge and wisdom, (but experience still is the best teacher). That's why i admire these people for sharing what they know and what they have for their following.
9. Christopher John Alandy-dy Tiu- also known as Chris Tiu, its an open book that i consider him as my 'ideal man'. he's quite perfect for me though there's no such thing as perfect but physically and intelligent wise i really adore him. He's my weakness (tall,fair,lean and most of all chinky-eyed) but there's a lot to admire from this guy, he's a management engineering graduate, Captain of Ateneo Blue Eagles, a business man, a 'kagawad' to his barangay, a Dean's Lister, a print and commercial model, a host and many more hats he wear. He's really an inspiration to everyone, a dream boy, maybe a prince. I applaud him for staying grounded despite of all the successes his enjoying right now.
10. Melanie I. Talusan- my sister, my "idol". She's the bread winner of our family when my father died. She's the one responsible and i should give credit why i attained my status now. She's the one who sent me to college and made it possible for me to became a nurse. She's a truly loving, caring and generous sister, all her efforts are well recognized by the family. I admire her for being a good person inside and out, an ex-print ad model, a beauty queen. Truly ethereal beauty that comes from a good heart.
11. Remedios Igaya- my mother, the very sole reason why am i existing in this world. The fuel that drives me to continue my passion, my battle in life. My source of strenght, truly there's no greater person than your mother. Just to raised us to become a better person, she hurdled so many sufferings that you couldn't imagine. She endured all the pain just to kept us safe and warmth. My mother is my Hero, no one can ever harm me while she still around. A very kind, loving and wonderful person. I thanked the lord above for sharing to me this one marvelous gift i should be proud off, and that's my mother.
1. Kevin Roxas- my co-trainee during Nset days, Maui Taylor look-alike. I learned a lot from this 25-year old lady from Roxas City, i admire her simplicity and maturity. I learn a lot of principles from love to different facets of life. She's the one made me realized 'why do i always fall for people who are committed' and that's because all those guys have one thing in common. Because these guys are the people who are considered as the total package (good looking,smart, good conversationalist, bankable) and she was right, these people are the market, and all people wants to have them.
2. Michelle Espiritu-my classmate,group mate,drinking partner, and one of my best friend. Though we're more than ten in our 'barkada' she's the one i considered as one of my truest friend. She knows me inside and out, every detail of my personality. She's my confidante, she's always there when i need someone to listen with all my predicaments, there to give advise and always assured me, that she'll stay no matter what. My sounding board, and I'm her sponge.
3. Sydney Igaya- my Amiga, my friendly ghost, my cousin. She's the one who stayed even everybody got away. She's the only person who knew the 'true' me. All the heartaches, all the crying, she's the witnessed when i first experienced heartbreak. I learned the other side of life from her. I consider her as my first best friend, though the world see her as the black sheep, for me she's the balancing force of my life.
4. Grays Gonzaga- my another group mate and friend. She's my friend from the time i set foot at Fatima University. My duet companion, we shared a lots of videoke sessions together. She has a wonderful and soothing voice, one of the best i ever heard. We really jive when it comes to music, we jell when we duet. She's the first person who appreciated my songs composition. And one of my treasured friend.
5. Ma'am Rei- My first buddy nurse at Our Lady of Mercy, she's the one i admire in my field of profession. She's the so called 'total package', she's beautiful,smart and caring. She possesses the knowledge, the skills and the attitude. I acquired her OC attitude, being obsessive-compulsive is a good trait to be a successful nurse.
6. Regine Velasquez- the Icon, the Asia's Songbird. It's a known fact for all the people who knows me that I'm an avid fan of her. When i was young i really loved her cover versions of Bluer than Blue, You Were There, and so much more to mention. When i was small, i used to sang her song "Kung Maiibabalik Ko lang" on videoke. And for the record, the first song i sang on stage was her phenomenal hit "You've Made Me Stronger". Until now, i used her song as my theme song, when i contemplating or hibernating. I will trade all i have just to have a voice like her, so serene, so powerful, nobody does the 'birit' compared to her. She's a legend.
7. Kristine Hermosa, Kristein Kreuk, Dawn Zulueta-The people i admire when it comes to beauty. Their beauty is classic, so elegant and ethereal. I really consider them as "Goddess" a beauty that will last a lifetime. A gorgeous face combined with intelligence and sophistication, that's describe these ladies. I'm really glad that Kristine Hermosa and I have the same birth date and height,could be fate?.If i was a girl i wish i could be as pretty as them.
8. Oprah Winfrey, Kris Aquino, Boy Abunda- These people are famous because they are 'masters of their own craft'. The wisdom is incomparable, when they speak i couldn't help but to listen. They always make sure that there's substance in every words they utter. And they always flagged that reading is the best tool to acquire knowledge and wisdom, (but experience still is the best teacher). That's why i admire these people for sharing what they know and what they have for their following.
9. Christopher John Alandy-dy Tiu- also known as Chris Tiu, its an open book that i consider him as my 'ideal man'. he's quite perfect for me though there's no such thing as perfect but physically and intelligent wise i really adore him. He's my weakness (tall,fair,lean and most of all chinky-eyed) but there's a lot to admire from this guy, he's a management engineering graduate, Captain of Ateneo Blue Eagles, a business man, a 'kagawad' to his barangay, a Dean's Lister, a print and commercial model, a host and many more hats he wear. He's really an inspiration to everyone, a dream boy, maybe a prince. I applaud him for staying grounded despite of all the successes his enjoying right now.
10. Melanie I. Talusan- my sister, my "idol". She's the bread winner of our family when my father died. She's the one responsible and i should give credit why i attained my status now. She's the one who sent me to college and made it possible for me to became a nurse. She's a truly loving, caring and generous sister, all her efforts are well recognized by the family. I admire her for being a good person inside and out, an ex-print ad model, a beauty queen. Truly ethereal beauty that comes from a good heart.
11. Remedios Igaya- my mother, the very sole reason why am i existing in this world. The fuel that drives me to continue my passion, my battle in life. My source of strenght, truly there's no greater person than your mother. Just to raised us to become a better person, she hurdled so many sufferings that you couldn't imagine. She endured all the pain just to kept us safe and warmth. My mother is my Hero, no one can ever harm me while she still around. A very kind, loving and wonderful person. I thanked the lord above for sharing to me this one marvelous gift i should be proud off, and that's my mother.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Happy Anniversary, Nurses of June 2007
It was last Sunday of August,when the results of our Licensure Examinationfor Nurses released. I was in my sister's house in Pasig when she got a text message from her former boss and Ex-commissioner of the PRC that i do passed the exam. We received the text in the afternoon, but the official results came out that evening. I slept earlier that day, when i woke up at around 10:00 in the evening my cell phone's inbox was full with messages, i even got a message from the people who i thought will never give me one. Unfortunately, i was ran out of credit that time so the following day, that's the time i thanked all those people. And i found out that three of my friends did pass the exam namely Mitch, Ehros, and Jordan. Unluckily, one of my good friend didn't make it but we're praying for her success.
After that, the Oath taking Ceremony was held at the Araneta Coliseum last October and i still kept my ticket on my treasure box. The registration for our license number took placed at November,after a month i received my license. Mitch and i started applying last week of November, we passed resumes' at the "Our lady of Mercy" in pulilan, and "BMMG" in Sta. Maria, where she was called for an interview and later on hired as a staff nurse,unfortunately, that hospital didn't call me but i was happy for my friend.
Last, December The Medical City called for an initial exam dated on January 7, 2008. There we're seventy plus who took the exam but only twelve passed the exam, unfortunately i did flop the exam, the exam was so difficult, i consider it as one of the most challenging exams i hurdled;At the same month, Ehros and i applied in numerous hospitals here in manila, to name a few,we went to Capitol Medical Center, Manila Doctor's, Lourdes hospital, and Cardinal Santos in Mandaluyong in just one day, so we had a trip in the whole metropolis.
After a month we received no response from all the hospitals we applied;It was so depressing, so many months of unemployment, with all the pressures out there the internal and the xternal asking, "why we're you still idle, stagnant and jobless. I talked to Ehros and some friends who suffered the same fate, and we all agree it was one of the lowest part of our lives or careers. But, God is good, He really does things in mysterious ways. When the time i was almost giving up, i received a text message from "Our Lady of Mercy" last February and i was scheduled for an interview and exam. At the end of that day,all sixteen of us who was called for the exam was hired as "trainee" or volunteers and started the day after. I gained new friends there that i will never forget, there's Sheryl, Gaynen, Candy. I even had great mentors like Ma'am Rei, Ynang and many more. It was my first service to my patients that's why i put my best foot forward.
After almost two months of training at Mercy and two areas of rotations, a better opportunity came.The St. Luke's Medical Center informed me that i passed their clinical exam, and i was on my way for the physical exam to joined the next batch of trainees. It was hard that time because i have to choose between the hospital who i learned to love or the the best hospital in town?! To cut the story short, i preferred SLMC and joined the NSET Batch 03-08, which opens a lot of doors for learning and opportunities. Furthermore, i gained lot of friends and still counting; On my third day of training Ma'am Rei informed me thru Fs that the chief nurse of Mercy was looking for me, she said that two days after i AWOL, they we're going to hire me;After all the screenings and learnings i had in SLMC, i have no remorse i chose this institution.
As i contemplating writing this entry, i remember that it was my father's dream for his "bunso" to be a nurse, when he was hospitalized at the Philippine Heart Center, and saw a nurse same as my built, with resemblance on my physical attributes he told my sister he would be happy seeing me as a Nurse. Though he died last 2002, January before my high school graduation, i know he's proud how far my career went, with all the achievements i had even if its small, still its an achievement; When i was in third year high school, i dreamt to became a nurse, and I'm proud to say "I'm living my dream, and I'm walking the path i aspired before".
That's why don't stop dreaming. Nothing is impossible. I may be a nurse but i'm just a few step towards my vision. I'm working now for my nclex exam, and glad to be newly hired associate of SLMC. Remember, always make your life Shine, to be the light and the guide of others...thanks, Go! Nurses.
After that, the Oath taking Ceremony was held at the Araneta Coliseum last October and i still kept my ticket on my treasure box. The registration for our license number took placed at November,after a month i received my license. Mitch and i started applying last week of November, we passed resumes' at the "Our lady of Mercy" in pulilan, and "BMMG" in Sta. Maria, where she was called for an interview and later on hired as a staff nurse,unfortunately, that hospital didn't call me but i was happy for my friend.
Last, December The Medical City called for an initial exam dated on January 7, 2008. There we're seventy plus who took the exam but only twelve passed the exam, unfortunately i did flop the exam, the exam was so difficult, i consider it as one of the most challenging exams i hurdled;At the same month, Ehros and i applied in numerous hospitals here in manila, to name a few,we went to Capitol Medical Center, Manila Doctor's, Lourdes hospital, and Cardinal Santos in Mandaluyong in just one day, so we had a trip in the whole metropolis.
After a month we received no response from all the hospitals we applied;It was so depressing, so many months of unemployment, with all the pressures out there the internal and the xternal asking, "why we're you still idle, stagnant and jobless. I talked to Ehros and some friends who suffered the same fate, and we all agree it was one of the lowest part of our lives or careers. But, God is good, He really does things in mysterious ways. When the time i was almost giving up, i received a text message from "Our Lady of Mercy" last February and i was scheduled for an interview and exam. At the end of that day,all sixteen of us who was called for the exam was hired as "trainee" or volunteers and started the day after. I gained new friends there that i will never forget, there's Sheryl, Gaynen, Candy. I even had great mentors like Ma'am Rei, Ynang and many more. It was my first service to my patients that's why i put my best foot forward.
After almost two months of training at Mercy and two areas of rotations, a better opportunity came.The St. Luke's Medical Center informed me that i passed their clinical exam, and i was on my way for the physical exam to joined the next batch of trainees. It was hard that time because i have to choose between the hospital who i learned to love or the the best hospital in town?! To cut the story short, i preferred SLMC and joined the NSET Batch 03-08, which opens a lot of doors for learning and opportunities. Furthermore, i gained lot of friends and still counting; On my third day of training Ma'am Rei informed me thru Fs that the chief nurse of Mercy was looking for me, she said that two days after i AWOL, they we're going to hire me;After all the screenings and learnings i had in SLMC, i have no remorse i chose this institution.
As i contemplating writing this entry, i remember that it was my father's dream for his "bunso" to be a nurse, when he was hospitalized at the Philippine Heart Center, and saw a nurse same as my built, with resemblance on my physical attributes he told my sister he would be happy seeing me as a Nurse. Though he died last 2002, January before my high school graduation, i know he's proud how far my career went, with all the achievements i had even if its small, still its an achievement; When i was in third year high school, i dreamt to became a nurse, and I'm proud to say "I'm living my dream, and I'm walking the path i aspired before".
That's why don't stop dreaming. Nothing is impossible. I may be a nurse but i'm just a few step towards my vision. I'm working now for my nclex exam, and glad to be newly hired associate of SLMC. Remember, always make your life Shine, to be the light and the guide of others...thanks, Go! Nurses.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
My Old Poems composition
It was August 5, 2005, when i wrote this poem. Again it was a labor of love for my friend named Brix Vilda, who happens to be my board mate that time, although we had so many fond memories but things didn't work out the way i want it to be, because at that time he was committed with a common friend of ours. So here's the poem, I hope you like it.
"SERENDIPITY"
I may not be the one you want
I may not be the one you need
But i can't help myself wonder
" Why still You, my heart desire!"
I'm sorry if i feel this way
I'm sorry if i changed the game
But how can i help it?.
You're such a good man
And I'm vulnerable during those times
You don't have to react
You don't have to respond
Coz i know you're seeing someone
But I'll never be that someone...
I'm a broken person
I'm a scattered pieces
But i won't ask you to pick-up my pieces
Because you're picking someone Else's
It's time to wake up
It's time to think up
My dreams with you is wasted;
And all my hopes culminated
You'll never see my worth
And i can't wait for that time to work;
You have said "you'll never love me''
I understand, I'm just someone who has been
your pastime. :(
"SERENDIPITY"
I may not be the one you want
I may not be the one you need
But i can't help myself wonder
" Why still You, my heart desire!"
I'm sorry if i feel this way
I'm sorry if i changed the game
But how can i help it?.
You're such a good man
And I'm vulnerable during those times
You don't have to react
You don't have to respond
Coz i know you're seeing someone
But I'll never be that someone...
I'm a broken person
I'm a scattered pieces
But i won't ask you to pick-up my pieces
Because you're picking someone Else's
It's time to wake up
It's time to think up
My dreams with you is wasted;
And all my hopes culminated
You'll never see my worth
And i can't wait for that time to work;
You have said "you'll never love me''
I understand, I'm just someone who has been
your pastime. :(
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