Just Random Thoughts

When i was watching TV awhile ago, i couldn't help but cried on a scene with the Korean telenovela entitled "Hello, My Lady", the scene was a guy surprised a girl he loves on her birthday, he arranged a birthday party for her, the most touching part was when the guy sang "SHE" with full admiration for the girl, just like the scene on my favorite movie "My Sassy Girl", when Gyun Wo surprised the girl during her class, brought her a long stem rose, while the girl even surprised him playing the piano on her recital with the song "Pachelbel Cannon"; And its really reminds me of my dream; before i was one of those people who aspire to become a millionaire, have my dream beach house or rest house in tagaytay, but as time goes by and as i matured things changed, even my dreams changed. I do believe that the only permanent thing in this world is change, life is dynamic; from a million dollar worth of dreams, mine changed into a simpler one,i just want to change my family's ways of living and as long as i can buy all my necessary things, I'm fine with it. But there's one dream that caused me to cry with those scenes I've mentioned, all my life i always wanted to have someone beside me, i always picture myself sitting on the passenger seat with that someone,cook for him, prepare his clothes pamper and take care of him, and i always wanted that someday someone will surprise me with those kinds of things just like those gentlemen did to their lady.I'll be the most happiest person if someone will dedicate, play the piano, do something sweet, or sing, "BE My Lady" or "She Will Be love", these songs really strikes me the most, being wanted and loved, admire and taking cared of. It shows that i am really a hopeless romantic type. I'm tired doing all the sacrifices for all the people i love, and i know i deserve a treat, everyone deserves a treat. I don't want to spread that i ain't blissful as a matter of fact i am, but there are times you will feel the emptiness, loneliness, or longings.

There were moments that life will uplift you, One time i was stunned that there really people who admire you though you're not a celebrity or a famous personality. i don't want to brag or something but i really appreciate when my friend told me that if there's one thing she's envious or want to trade in me, and that's my success in career, although i didn't consider now that I'm successful because I'm just halfway in my goals in life, but i do consider all my achievements as a success little by little, step by step. It really moves me that a certain part of my life that before doesn't matter for me, unknowingly, a thing that i should be proud of.

I know that the Lord above saved the best thing, the best person for me, that's why I'm not in a hurry, i just enjoying life, all the Ups and Downs, maybe one part of my life is successful which is my career and my love life is poor, but as many people would say career and love is not always balance there's one aspect that always suffer, but i have strong faith that soon the other aspect of my life will blossomed and flourished, so I'm saving forever and my love for that special someone and final words "the true meaning of fate is building a bridge of chance for the one you love". So, we have to work on it, it takes patience and a prayer. thanks for reading.

My Old Songs Composition

There are certain people who doesn't know i write poems and songs and even sketch; Whenever I'm depress or emotionally unstable that's the time i usually had a great output, there two songs composition of mine that's so dear to me, one i wrote three years ago if I'm not mistaken. so here's the song hope you like the lyrics.This song my inspiration was Mark Anthony Escanilla hope someday he will hear or read this song.

"My Heart Only Beats for You"

I'm Here all alone, after seein' you walking by
I don't know how to hide, the tears that begin to fall
But despite all the pain, the fact you can't convey
my heart kept pounding, though my world's breakin'

Chorus:
Hope you give me even a glance
able to see that I'm lonely
Hope you smile towards my way
Coz i do love you, and my heart only beats for you

Now I'm writin' this line, and all I'm thinkin' is you
Every time each moment passed, only makes me realized
that you are not mine, but for someone else
Would you stop me from crying, because your name I'm still screamin'

Bridge:
Coz it's hard to let go, when the feeling is true
Now i promised myself, only you i will share my life
share my life.

Wathcing UAAP at the Big Dome (Seeing Chris Tiu for the first time)

Last Sunday I watched UAAP at Studio 23 and found out that Ateneo's next game will be held at the Araneta Coliseum last August 21, right there and then I decided that I'm going to watched it myself, its time for me to see my crush, my so-called 'ideal man' you already know, its Chris. Then, last tuesday I had an agreement,with my friend "Tinay" now newly baptized as 'teenie' that she'd accompany me to the game.

And it was Thursday, early in the morning Teenie texted me just to informed me, that she can't come because her mother asked her to visit her grandmother, of course, family first before pleasure so I'd said It's OK! with me, i understood her reasons. Mid that morning my other co-trainee named Ron asked me to have our vaccination that was overdue for two months if I'm certain. I was ambivalent that time, If I would go to SLMC to have my vaccine or watched the game, then i decided since the game was scheduled at around 4:00pm, I could still catch the game if I want too. So, Ron and I met at around 2:00 at St. Luke's and proceeded to the billing and paid our vaccines, unluckily, I only had Hep B, because the Flu vaccine was out of stock. We finished at 2:45,I was hesitant If i will still go to watched because I had no companion seems cheap right?!, so desperate!lols,then Ron convinced me and persisted I should go, So my inner desire won.

I went there and arrived at 3:00, because this will be my first UAAP experienced and first time to see Chris Tiu so I decided to bought a patron ticket so I can see his face nearer. Luckily, at the side of the bench of the Blue Eagles where I landed, when I arrived the game between Adamson and UP were still ongoing so i watched it and realized that UP has some good looking players like Dela Victoria, while I was absorb by the game i found out that Chris' brother Charles Tiu was five-seats adjacent in front of me, so much resemblance with the brothers. Nonetheless, it was 3:45 so the Blue Eagle's players entered I was so absorbed texting when the crowd screamed, then I looked up and saw that Chris was now in the room, I was so nervous, palpitating, I couldn't catch my breath, what an awesome view, omg! I was bewilderwed, he is so dead gorgeous, then I realized He's really my Ideal Man. During the game I was lucky I'm near at their bench, so I ogled at him a trillion,zillion times. It was a hard and rough game for the team, the UE Red Warriors we're so COMPETITIVE, they raised against each other well.

During the fourth round, it was the crucial point for the Ateneo, UE was ahead with 3 points and the time left was 19 seconds, when suddenly Chris made a major turnover for the game, he made this magnificent 3-point shot that made the game tied. I was so happy about that, during overtime Chris made again a 3-point and a lay-up shots that made the Ateneo ahead, but he had an injury when the game was near to end.And the team won, gained the status of 10-1 at the UAAP. I was so happy seeing him for the first time, one hallmark of my life that i would never forget, i learned that if you want something; don't hesitate to do it, achieve it. Hopefully, I have more encounter with MR. Christopher John Alandy-Dy Tiu, my hero. thanks for reading.

"Watching My ideal guy playing at the UAAP"

It's an open book to all the people who knows me that I consider Chris Tiu as my ultimate 'Ideal Man'. For the reason that physically he possessed all the qualities I'm looking for a person, tall, fair, lean and most of all 'chinky-eyed'.

Personality wise, he's so smart, a good conversationalist, business minded, and based on what I heard, they say that he's kind too, he's multi-faceted, there so many hats he wears,including being the captain ball of Ateneo Blue Eagles, an SK chairman, a business man, a co-host of "Pinoy Records", also soon to host "Ripley's Believe it or not.

Enough of all the introduction, I'm so happy watching UAAP awhile ago, Ateneo vs. Adamson, though Chris didn't carried the game, it really enticed me to watched him on TV, by the way I read on some blogs that his ideal girl is chinky-eyed and petite, that sure excludes me because I do have almond-shaped eyes, but i know Chris is happy with his longtime girlfriend named Clarrise Ong, just sharing my thoughts, hope it has a substance. Thanks for reading my blog.

My Nurse Staff Effectiveness training (NSET)

"The 'End' of some body's time, is my time to 'Shine'".

Gosh! July 3,2008 will be the date of our graduation in NSET at St. luke's Medical Center, after this we're gonna face the real chaos of our profession. I will miss all my co-trainees especially "Weng" my best buddy on the field, on singing, teasing and mocking our co-trainees. The sinister sister indeed.

My Chinito/Chinky-eyed crushes

Name: Christopher John Alandy-dy Tiu

Age:22

Basketball Cager/Host-Pinoy Records

It was only last October 2008, when I knew Chris Tiu. I was retrieving images at g-blogs when I accidentally noticed his picture wearing a jersey # 17, the first expression was He's "HoT" and drop-dead handsome. Actually my preference for an ideal guy is Tall, fair, lean and most of all Chinky-eyed. He is somehow a good catch because he is so smart a graduate of Management Engineering & now studying for master's degree. He has a business solely own named "Chinky Chicken" which sells rice meals in front of Ateneo De Manila Ubiversity. Now, his back with Ateneo Blue Eagles for another season. Chris tiu is truly deserving of the title "Tiuperman". "Kudos " to Chris Tiu.

"A lot like LOVE"

"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place....I am the force!!!!!!!!!!"

Last June 02-06, 2008, our clinical rotation with my co-trainee Bong on St. Luke's Medical Center was on Cancer 2 a special Onco Unit. When I got there I've noticed this guy who happened to be the clinical pharmacist on the unit. I heard that temporarily he will be in the unit for one week, actually his original post is in Cancer 1. When I arrived I noticed his stealing glimpse and glances, at first i wasn't conscious because the heck I was late for a couple of minutes. He was cute stereotypical filipino, not to tall approximately 5'4" in height, fair, with braces, handsome i mean. When I proceed with my delegated task I always catch him staring at me, at first i felt weird but there's "Kilig". Then he kept on staying at my side, I felt butterflies on my stomach when he's around. On my third day, I was joking with Bong that he's my husband, good thing with Bong he rode on my jokes and kept on teasing me, at lunch time I even joked and introduced him to my closest trainee named "Weng", she said it was my first time that my "taste" got wrong in terms of picking a good looking guy. Let just say love is blind, such a cliche' indeed. But, when my last day of duty came, I was disappointed because the girl used to be the pharmacist of that unit took over. I saw him when I was in the elevator after my break, I saw his eyes i wasn't know what hidden message he was trying to imply. But the whole duty was full of emptiness and I was lonely the whole day. Folks! The lucky guy named is "JERWIN L. LIM RPh" working in ST. Luke's Medical Center. Pray for the best that Our path meet again. Hope I've got his number while his reciting it during the phone conversation. But what more can I say, Love come, Love goes.