I Love Kris Aquino

Last Sunday i was watching "The Buzz" and i was mortified by Kris' monologue about what has been happened to her these past few weeks. People has been so cruel to her, especially during the said Ruffa Gutierrez walk-out incident. I cried over the fact that she's planning to quit show-business for awhile. She asked for her Sisters approval regarding the said matter. And the said decision is still hanging.

Kris sometimes tactless but most of the time tactful. I adore her being transparent and vocal about her feelings. She's polarizing you may love her or hate her but I'm on the loving part. What most admirable about her is that in every roller coaster issues she's in she learned something and tried to do something or changed about it. Somehow she's true about being careful on words coming out from your mouth, at times its hard for me, there times i say things that was a joke for me but for other people that's a mere assassination of characters. I'm trying to be a person of less talk, less mistakes but i can't help it, I'm a very opinionated person, i have a lot of words to say if i know i have a voice on that topic.

I learned something from Ruffa Gutierrez "never say goodbye and never burn bridges" somewhat its true, never lose communication and friendship from the people whom had been part of your life and mentor you about life's chaotic schemes. For all the people I've hurt from the ruthless words coming from me, I want to apologize and appease you by saying sorry and I'll try my best to improve my being, nobody's perfect and i am not perfect but i assure you that there's a room for improvement and I'm working on it.

Ainan :)

From a Different Point of View

"Everyone has their own Love Story, mine has not yet made, and still on the making" that's my latest shout out from my FB account. The reason why i was mushy because I've watched the movie "Miss You Like Crazy" i was really a fan of Bea & John LLoyd and really applaud the movie "One More Chance".

I was so excited knowing that I'm a true-blooded (hopeless-romantic). I cried on the movie, it was a tear-jerker, i contemplated on my love life and analyzed all the special people who crossed path with my heart. I admit I'm still into my first love, lucky Mark Anthony is keeping me head over heels for him. I know his happy and settled now but i remember the boy and still remember the feeling.

I was moved by the line "Time is meaningless" true, if you love someone, no matter how many years passed by, you still hoping and praying that one day, you will end up together. The movie gave me some sort of hope for the "hopeless case" like me. The movie catapults my definition of love for someone, the sacrifices you have to endure, that you have to let go when you have to, that not all people in love are bound to be together.

I maybe just another Mia, whose priority is family! I know somewhere along the way I will meet my August, maybe not now, but soon we will cross path, and shake hands!!!

Ainan :)

"A Glimpse from the Past"

Last October 17, 2009 i was granted my first VL (vacation leave) for 11 days, these leaves are given for associate whose one year in service, lucky me, i chose to have it then. There's nothing unusual done i just had a total 8 hours sleep, a nap time, and a full meal. The only thing i decided to do was "DVD Marathon" i chose Sailormoon series to be the subject.

I remember i first watch this anime' way back 1991 and continued patronizing it until the last episode shown at ABC 5, if memory serves me that was 2003 or 2004. It was I and my twin cousins Mitchell and Michael enjoyed it, I was playing Sailorpluto then.

When i first watched the episode 1 during my DVD marathon, i haven't remember the story then until i went to episodes 4 and kept on watching. I couldn't help but continuously watch it, i felt the nostalgia sets in the memories of my childhood, the fond memories i have shared with my cousins, the days i waited for Saturday because its sailor moon day.

What really strikes me and made me realized now is that the story wasn't just about the sailor warriors fighting for love and justice, it also tackles an undying love just like Romeo & Juliet.

Princess Serenity & Prince Endymion love defies all odds. I was captured and teary-eyed when i found out their link on the story, it was quite witty and clever. I was so touched and felt the undying love.

I know you might laugh or found my entry irrelevant but if you've watched the series i know somehow you might find the same feeling i felt from SAILORMOON.

Ainan

"When Catastrophe Came"

Last September 26, 2009 will be marked on our country's history due to typhoon Ondoy's wrath, the metropolis was submerged to flood and mud because of the nine hours continuous rain. I myself experienced being stranded at Valenzuela City because i attended my friend's birthday party. I was trapped for one day, there we're no vehicles passing by because even a Bus was submerged to flood. Fortunately, we have foods although the electricity went out.

That was really a devastating experience, it was a lost of many lives not to mention material things and ways of living. I saw captured pictures and videos of the whole metropolis and the metro manila i have known was converted into an ocean in just a glimpse. It was really a tragedy all of us Filipinos would have never forget.

What really pains me and brought me to tears was when i read about a Korean comment on a blog in the "Twitter" and i quote " Have you heard the news?!The monkey island Philippines is flooded. I hope the rain will never stop to drown those monkeys". All of them are laughing, another one said "They will all die because monkeys cant swim". That was a cruel comment knowing that it came from a neighboring country. We Filipinos have been hospitable and love the Korean for their Telenovelas. I myself had a Korean friend when i was studying nursing and i was been so good to her, i was the only one talking and explaining everything to her.

On a lighter note, i was delighted by the overflowing of supports and financial aide from other countries. I was moved when i saw some Hollywood celebrities who used the Twitter to asked for support whole over the world. There were Demi & Ashton Kutcher, Alyssa Milano and Josh Groban to name a few. These shows that all of us is human, and we do need each other. Hope this coming Christmas will help to alleviate some loneliness and emptiness the past chaos brought.

Ainan ;(

Long Overdue

It's been 3 months since my last entry, there so many times I've tried to write an entry of all the things that had happened to me. There's been a lot of summer outing, a heartbreak, falling in love again, plenty of night outs and even pollutants of life.

I miss blogging a lot, here i can express all my thoughts, all my feelings that i need to express that i cannot open up with my friends. I have missed a lot especially Chris Tiu's blog that i have been a patron. I went too many places these past few months, i have been to Puerto Galera with my co-associate at St. Lukes, and the former anawangin gurls is now converted to puerto galera girls... I really enjoyed the seashore, especially the snorkeling we had, it seems like i was a mermaid on my past life. We enjoyed the boating and the island hopping. It was a surreal experience another hallmark of my life. I do have the pictures just try to visit my Facebook account thru the name "Ainan Igaya" just search it if you do have the time.

Aside from outing, i have a lots of night outs, i went to timog to tomas morato up to valenzuela for our monthly update with my college friends. And I'm sad to say the alcoholic content of my body is equal to the water content, just kidding. But i do have enough share of happy moments.
And i have a lot of fair share of emptied and emotionally imbalance moments.

I suffered a tremendous heartbreaks that leads me to bring back the inner "Queen Bee" in me, i didn't mean to be harsh to everyone but i need to protect myself from all those people who tried to tie you down. Everyday we we're surrounded by people, fake and untrue its a matter of analyzing who is who. Right now, i even made another mistake, falling in love again to someone who has a girlfriend. Again, i cannot count how many times i fell to someone who already had a special someone.

What pains me more is the thought that i couldn't express my feelings for some reasons. Prudence dictates me that i have to save a piece of me to prevent myself for having a troubled heart again. I want to share who the guy is, but I'm saving it for my next entry...

Ainan

"Mixed Emotions"

This past few days, i was struck with whirlwinds of emotions. Last week i was happy being single, contented just by reading 'I Kissed Dating Goodbye" but after work i started to felt wasted and tired. I was drained physically and emotionally i always invested too much energy and efforts to work, thanks! God I'm still in tough shaped.

Before i was not affected with national issues that much, but as i grow and mature I'm able to digest my part in this society, even as a normal individual. I was stressed when i saw the news of the three "INRC" captives by Abu Sayaf whom they planned to cut their head-off if the government didn't give in to their demands. As a member of the health team it pains me to know that these terrorist doesn't show mercy to think that their captives are known for helping victims of war, and so on and so forth. On a lighter note, i was happy to hear that their plans are not executed and the INRC members are still safe & sound.

Another issues that bothers me was that Hongkong National a columnist who commented on a magazine that our native country is a nation of servants. That was quite pathetic and out of line. I acknowledge the fact that many workers outside the country are domestic helpers but i didn't see wrong with it. I as a Filipino was deeply hurt by that statement, it leaves a scar in the heart. I think those narrowed minded people should immerse here in the country for them to realized and recognized the hidden talents and magnificent skills we possessed, Filipinos are great hospitable and culture oriented people. I think we're one of the kindest people in the world.

I hope i sounded lucid... I am so damn tired and needed a break!!!

Ainan

"Life Goes On"

Some people say when it rains it pours, its true in so many facets of life. There are times when you've experienced happiness you thought that wouldn't end and vice-versa. And when you experienced tide in your life you would wish it would end but it continuously clouding your life and losing all the thread of hope you had. I never tell myself I'm a strong person instead i always tell myself that I'm not alone in this battle that someone is fighting with me.

Being a nurse, i saw many people who draw their strenght and fate above. I saw many tears flowing from people whose hopes diminished and almost gave-up on their battle. I never understood them, they say we need "empathy" not sympathy. As a growing up individual i won so many battles, flopped many times but i struggled to stand up again. But the more successful you were on that battle a much difficult one will arise.

I read this quote on a book " God's in His heaven so all's right in the world", at first i was skeptical and i felt ambiguous because i couldn't digest the meaning of the verse. Until i experienced something that almost put me to tears, have you ever experienced something that when you woke up everything seems to be wrong, and at the end of the day all you've done was a mess. You always committed mistakes you couldn't afford. That situation was awful, i felt trapped, abandoned, irrelevant. Until i realized something, that i was forgetting something and someone who has been my companion since time immemorial. I went back to his place and talked to Him about my complains, about my predicaments, and guess what?! He listened, all of a sudden everything went OK!

I think that's what you call "Divine Intervention". There's a rainbow after the rain, and Life goes on and on..

Ainan :)